She's 2 months old

Man time flies. It seriuosly needs to stop. RIGHT NOW!!! {lol}

Anyways, life has been so hectic for me for the past couple days. I'm having to adjust to life as a single mom. That's right. I'm a single mother. It's something I didn't think would happen, but the relationship I was in was unhealthy. I was unhappy. We fought all the time and once he realized he wasn't my Bug's real dad he became distant from her. He wasn't sure if he could raise her. How can I be with someone who doesn't know if he can accept my daughter? He would bounce back an dforth on whether or not he wanted to be a part of her life. He wasn't making a decision so I did and it was one he didn't like. He has been trying to get me to work things out, but I have tried. I had been trying for months and the fighting never stopped. It wasn't healthy for me or my daughter. She seems so much happy without all the fighting putting stress on her. She's even started having daily BMs. She'd go 2-3 days without having one but since I broke up with EB she has had one everyday. If that doesn't tell me I made the right choice for her sake then I don't know what would.

I told her real dad, JV about her. He seems happy and told me that if I needed help he would there for us. He's already asked me if I needed anything for her he'd send it. There's only one problem. He's moving. To France. For FIVE years at least. He's joining the French Legion. He leaves in December.

Let's see. I'm doing great. I'm ready to move to KY, but that's gonna be another 2 months easy. This blog will most likely be how I update everyone on how me and my Bug are doing. I'm hoping to really start blogging. I've tried it before. i had planned on blooging more while I was pregnant, but that didn't happen. I'll try my hardest to keep it updated but I'm not promising anything.

Anywho, I hope you follow and enjoy the Ramblings of a New Momma.

She almost 2 months old

The night before I had her


Here she is at birth


So my little Bug was born March 29th, 2010 at 3:31pm. She was 5lbs7oz and 18.5 inches long. Her head was 12inches. I went in on the 29th at 9am to be induced. At about 11am I was started on pitocin and my labor advance on a steady rate. The nurses kept losing Bug's heartbeat so they decided to do an internal monitor so they had to break my bag. I was in some major pain and even though I said I wanted to go all natural I asked for an epidural. They gave me stadol to take off the edge until I could get the epi. They broke my bag and I dialated too quickly to get the epi. I was in labor for about 5 hours.

The past two months have been the best of my life. My bug is getting so big. She had her 1 month check up on Tuesday (I know, late) and she now weighs 8lbs12oz and is 21inches long. She is a little chunky bug. The dr said she was really strong though. She had to hold Bug to bend her knees. She's got a strong neck.

Memaw said she's got my eyes. She's starting to try and laugh and she already dislikes being laid down in someone's arms uness she's eatting. She's gonna be one stubborn girl, I can already see it.

Here she is at almost 2 months old

38weeks 1day - She's dropped

Like OMG YAY!!!! I'm so happy she's dropped down. It just means were that much close to her coming to the world. We had an OB visit yesterday and I'm 1cm dialated and 70% effaced. Everyone who works in the office don't think we'll make it to our next appointment. I've been so tired here lately. I sleep for maybe 4 hours a night before I'm up every hour because I have to pee and then I'll crawl back into bed and toss and turn and just when I start dozing I have to pee again. I'm happy I get those 4 hours before it starts but I am just so tired all day. Daddy and I have been walking a lot here lately to help with the onset of labor. We're ready to be Mommy nad Daddy to our little Bug. She's got so much stuff that our room isn't really our anymore. It's her room, just with our bed, desk, and clothes.

One good thing about all this is that I can finally breathe almost normal. I never realized how much she squished my lungs until she dropped. We were at the bowling alley last night and I guess all my trips to the bathroom helped. I also think I've begun losing my mucus plug. I saw a brown spot on my underwear and I know that the discharge of the mucus plug could be brownish and not very noticeable. I know TMI, but it's just a part of life.

Personally, I think my baby girl is boycotting the grandkids group photo tomorrow. Memaw is getting a picture of all the grandkids so she has a group photo and I think Bug wants her to wait. I mean seriously, I'm due in two weeks. I understand she doesn't know when she'll have a chance to get it, but it kinda hurts my feelings that she can't wait. I mean Bug is her granddaughter too.

It's really hit Daddy that were about to be parents. Like all the stuff we got for her wasn't enough, but now that we know labor is just around the corner he's really worried about me all the time. He know just about when I'm having a contraction and he all "You alright babe?" "Just breathe. You can do this." He's so supportive and I love him so much. Even though he's been dog tired he still makes me get up and walking. Yesterday we walked so much that he wasn't sure if he could bowl, but he did and then still had me up before noon so we could go on a walk. We did take a nap before he went to work and we'll probably be in bed by midnight tonight again. We've got to get as much sleep now because Bug's gonna be here soon.

Anywho, she's kinda pushing on my pelvis so I'm gonna go lay down. I want to just relax.

35weeks 2days - I'm more than ready

So I've finally gotten to that point where I just want to be done being pregnant and have my baby girl in my arms. I'm just so tired and uncomfortable all the time. I do love being pregnant. It has it's advantages. No period for example. I have not missed having my monthly at all. I now remember why the first birth control I ever went one was the Depo Shot, mainly because I suck at remembering to take pills daily and I didn't have to worry about my period. I know TMI, but hey it's my blog. I'll talk about what I want. Anywho, I do love being pregnant, but I'm so close to the end that I just want my daughter in my arms.

She's running out of room in the belly as it is. I don't know if I can take her growing anymore because I swear it feels like my belly won't stretch anymore. My stomach is constantly hard and it feels like Bug is always pushing out. I can see when she moves around and it feels like she's got no room. I know that the next 4weeks and 5days are gonna drag on and I'm really not looking forward to that. The only thing that's keeping me going is that at the end of all this I will finally be a momma and everything will be right in the world for me.

It's amazing how small I was when I first found out I was pregnant. I was looking at pictures I took at 17weeks and I look so freakin small, but I still feel small right now whenever I look at pictures from my friends when have babies or are pregnant right now. Mom says that I just carry Bug in the back, which I can completely agree with, especially when I swear I can feel her pushing on my spine. I know in this last month I'm just gonna explode, but right now everyone who sees me says I don't look almost 9 months pregnant, 7 maybe but not 9. Crazy isn't it?

I'm so excited for next weekend. I finally get to go to my baby showers. They're just a week away. I can't wait. For once, everything will be all about me and my little family. I've always wanted to be the guest of honor at a baby shower and now I get to be. I guess it's more because I've always wanted to be a mom and this means that my wish is finally coming true. I trully feel blessed. After 2 1/2 years of being unsuccessful, I finally get to live my dream. I finally get to know for sure that I will hear those precious words "Mom, Mommy, Momma, etc."

I swear my daughter is trying her hardest to just tear out of my belly. Earlier today while I was uploading pictures onto FB and MySpace she pushed her foot right up into my right side and I swear it felt like she was trying to push my ribs out of the way so she would have more space. I love you Bug but please stop hurting Mommy.

Hopefully I remember to update before I have her. We go to the doctors on Monday and I've got my fingers crossed that they give us another ultrasound or at least a date for our next one. I want to see my little girl again.

28weeks 2days - 3rd Trimester and still going strong

I am LOVING being pregnant, but my baby girl has decided she likes to move ALL night. She's not even born yet and she's waking me up in the middle of the night already. I feel so unprepared right now though. I know I'm ready to be a momma, but I don't really have anything for her. I have some clothes, one box of Swaddler diapers, a stroller, a carseat, and a few blankets. I have no bottles, no binkies, no where near enough clothes for her. My dad as yet to fit the antique German cradle I slept in as a baby. I guess I always thought I would have a lot of the stuff I need by this point in my pregnancy. My baby showers aren't until March and I don't want to have this feeling until then. I barely have enough space for her. I'm having to take things out of my room to fit her cradle. I hate not having a room just for her, but I live with my parents and I only have the one room for not only me, but also her daddy and her. I'm just in this mood to get stuff ready for her.

The past 28 weeks have flown by and I just have this gut feeling that the next 12 are gonna fly by faster. I feel like I'm going crazy. My moods are everywhere and I never know what's gonna happen next. I have a feeling Daddy is growing tired of my mood swings. It's just hard to control them when I have so much going on in my life. I feel totally unprepared for April, but I want April to be here already.

I know so many people who are pregnant right now, one of my close friends had her baby girl in November. I held her little girl the day she was born (on my little sister's birthday) and I didn't want to wait any longer for my own daughter. Everyone is so sweet to me when it comes to my Bug. Another friend of mine (who's a mommy to a little boy) put a package in the mail with baby stuff in it. I can't wait to get it. I love getting baby stuff. The other day Daddy's Grandma sent a package with 3 knitted blankets, 2 overly adorable outfits, a bib/burp rag combo, and some wash clothes. My mom bought Bug's Homecoming Outfit, but one of the outfits Grandma sent is so freaking cute. I'm tempted for that to be Bug's Homecoming Outfit. I think I'll pack both and depending on her size with decide which one she wears home. The one my mom bought is a premie and the one Grandma sent is newborn.

Daddy and I have been washing baby clothes like crazy here lately. We got a lot of clothes from his sister, but not enough 0-3 months ones. I'm hoping to get some at my baby showers. I can't wait for them. I'm having two. One here for my friends and one on the other side of the state for family. I still need to go and register at Wal*Mart for Bug. I need to get that done ASAP. The baby showers are a day apart in March.

So much to do, that I need to get done ASAP.