November is right around the corner and, as much as I love autumn and the holiday season, the beginning of November has be rough the past couple of years. October 15th was National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. It was rather rough, but I was lucky enough to have had to work. On November 03rd it will have been 4 years since I miscarriaged my precious baby girl Hayden Grace. I think of how much has changed since I lost her. God knew it was for the best that He protect my daughter from the ordeal of my divorce. It's quite mind boggling that, had I not miscarried her, I would have a 3 1/2 year old running around, messing with her little sister. I will let Miss Bug know she has an Angel as a BIG sister, just like I'll make sure all my babies know of her.
If you didn't catch it before, I have a job. It's seasonal right now, but my manager said there would be openings after the holidays. Hopefully I get to stay. If not, then it's just more work experience and another job I can add to my resume. Anywho, I work at C's in B.R.P.O. I really like it. I get to help people and see all ages of babies. Honestly, it was just meant to be. Papi, Miss Bug, and I went to the outlet center to use a $25 off coupon and Miss Bug soaked through her clothes. Of course, the one time I don't have a spare outfit in her diaper bag, this happens. So we run over to C's to grab an outfit for her and Papi asks if they're hiring. They were and he grabbed an aplication for me. I took it back the next day and got an interview scheduled for the next day. I went in, got the job, and started that following week. I love all the women I work with, they're all such characters. Keep your fingers crossed that I get to keep this job after the new year.
Now on the Little Miss Bug. My oh my, how she's grown. She's actually caught up to the size clothes sized for her age. I can hardly believe that in a couple short weeks she's going to be 19mo old. Time is flying far to fast for my liking. Where did my itty bitty baby go? She's now sitting at the dining room table instead of in her high chair and she's throwing trash away in the trash can when we ask her. We don't even have to throw away her dirty diapers because as soon as she's dressed with a fresh diaper, she grabs the dirty one and off to the trash can she goes. She's so smart and so independent. She's started saying new words like; elephant, balloon, ball, no, and yeah. She says 'please' and 'thank you' in ASL and I'm working on 'you're welcome'. (I really need to get into the ASL classes at school) Papi and I took Miss Bug to her first professional basball game and man did she have a blast.
Papi and I are wonderful. We're hoping that, if I get to keep this job after the new year, that we can get married and be off state assistance. I know once we do get married, we won't be eligable for anything. We're not worried about mine and Miss Bug's insurance, but more so the food stamps I recieve. I really can't wait for the day I will no longer be on assistance. I hate having to be on it to feed my daughter, but I will because I know my daughter needs it.
Anywho, I'll try to update y'all sooner. I'm just swamped with work, school, Miss Bug, and the house. TTFN
