Why should I be the one trying in a relationship? Why do I always find the guys that are great at frist but turn out to be douchebags? Don't I deserve to be happy. Doesn't my daughter deserve to know her father? I'm done trying to have things work with him. I have tried and tried and the only thing that happened was him yelling at me. I'm through. I tell him Miss Bug has been fussy al day and he doesn't ask why until I ask him "Aren't you wondering why?" Kinda messed up. I shouldn't have to force him to be concerned for his daughter.
I haven't heard from him in like a week and I'm done trying to get him to talk to me.
So, according to me, I'm single and have been since Eric and I broke up. I never felt like me and JV were dating. I am a single momma and I'm happy with that.
Sort of a vent. Sorry, but I needed to get it out.
My babies
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Friday, July 9, 2010
Fighting with a Bug and her thumb
So Miss Bug has started sucking on her thumb. She's adament about it too. I can take her thumb out of her mouth and pop in her paci adn as soon as I turn my head she spits her paci out and into her mouth goes her thumb. She's a smart little girl too. Last night I put her in her Jumperoo and turn on the music box. Well in order for it to play music the jumper has to move. It took Miss Bug about 2 minutes to figure it out.
She loves walks, even in this heat. I'm making it a habit that every night after it's cooled off a little we go on a walk before bed. It helps he relax and go to sleep easier. She had started fighting me when I'd put her in her swing for bed. I don't rock her, she really fights me then. I've been putting her in her swing for the past couple weeks so she can be rocked to sleep.
Memaw and Poppa went on vacations last week and once Miss Bug realized she hadn't seen them she really started fighting me at bed time. She would scream until she just tired herself out. Well one night I just had had enough so I grabbed the stroller and we went on a walk at about 8:30. it had cooled off enough to wear it was tolerable. Well, I had given her a bottle before we left and she loved the walk. We walked for about 30 minutes and then went home. I put her in her swing and she cried for a minute or two and then just zonked out.
I feel very blessed that Miss Bug already sleeps through the night. Usually, if she doesn't fight me too bad, she's asleep by 10-10:30 and she'll wake up at about 8-8:30 for a bottle and take a short hour nap.
JV is just wonderful. We started dating on June 25th and it's hard because he's working at Cedar Point this summer, but we're making it work. He changed his mind about joining the Foreign Legion. He wants to join the USMC but he has a problem taking tests. I've got to get to him so I can help him study for it. He's now talking about moving to MO when he's done working at Cedar Point.
Memaw and Poppa bought a house in Muskegon. The house in KY didn't happen so they found another. One closer to GG. It's like 2 miles from Lake Michigan and 8 miles from Michigan Adventures. It should be nice. I don't know how long I'll be living with them but it'll be nice to have my own room again. Miss Bug will have her own room as well. I can't wait to decorate our rooms. I have to make sure a rainbow is put in her room.
Something I just started telling people is why I'm putting a rainbow in her room. A very dear friend of mine died my freshman year of highschool. Marcus was a great friend and didn't let anyone put him down or bully him because he was gay. He passed away March 29th, 2004. Six year later I had Miss Bug. After they took her off my chest to clean her up a little and check her over I looked out the window and saw a rainbow. I think that was Marcus watching over her. So because of that she will always have a rainbow of some sorts in her bedroom.
She loves walks, even in this heat. I'm making it a habit that every night after it's cooled off a little we go on a walk before bed. It helps he relax and go to sleep easier. She had started fighting me when I'd put her in her swing for bed. I don't rock her, she really fights me then. I've been putting her in her swing for the past couple weeks so she can be rocked to sleep.
Memaw and Poppa went on vacations last week and once Miss Bug realized she hadn't seen them she really started fighting me at bed time. She would scream until she just tired herself out. Well one night I just had had enough so I grabbed the stroller and we went on a walk at about 8:30. it had cooled off enough to wear it was tolerable. Well, I had given her a bottle before we left and she loved the walk. We walked for about 30 minutes and then went home. I put her in her swing and she cried for a minute or two and then just zonked out.
I feel very blessed that Miss Bug already sleeps through the night. Usually, if she doesn't fight me too bad, she's asleep by 10-10:30 and she'll wake up at about 8-8:30 for a bottle and take a short hour nap.
JV is just wonderful. We started dating on June 25th and it's hard because he's working at Cedar Point this summer, but we're making it work. He changed his mind about joining the Foreign Legion. He wants to join the USMC but he has a problem taking tests. I've got to get to him so I can help him study for it. He's now talking about moving to MO when he's done working at Cedar Point.
Memaw and Poppa bought a house in Muskegon. The house in KY didn't happen so they found another. One closer to GG. It's like 2 miles from Lake Michigan and 8 miles from Michigan Adventures. It should be nice. I don't know how long I'll be living with them but it'll be nice to have my own room again. Miss Bug will have her own room as well. I can't wait to decorate our rooms. I have to make sure a rainbow is put in her room.
Something I just started telling people is why I'm putting a rainbow in her room. A very dear friend of mine died my freshman year of highschool. Marcus was a great friend and didn't let anyone put him down or bully him because he was gay. He passed away March 29th, 2004. Six year later I had Miss Bug. After they took her off my chest to clean her up a little and check her over I looked out the window and saw a rainbow. I think that was Marcus watching over her. So because of that she will always have a rainbow of some sorts in her bedroom.
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