10 months ago today I was in labor. I was getting ready to have the most beautiful little girl come into my life. Many things have changed in those 10months. My little girl has come into her own personality.
* She has such a big sense of humor. She can be watching something on tv and find something funny that her daddy and I find funny.
* She is such a smart little girl as well. She's been crawling for a month already and I can hardly remember her rolling around to get places.
* She has grown so much since last month. She tries her hardest to pull herself into a standing position, but she hasn't quite grasped the concept of moving her knees forward yet.
* Still not a lot of hair, but people are starting to notice that you're a little girl.
* She's starting to eat real food, not just baby food. However, she loves her fruit and cereal mix in the morning. She's not 100% sure about cheerios, but she'll eat them if they're in front of her.
* She plays in her room all by herself now. She'll crawl down the hallway and go straight to her toys. When she's done she doesn't fuss because she's alone. No, she'll crawl right back down the hallway because sher know's momma is in the living room.
* She takes one nap a day which can be anywhere between 1pm and 3pm. Today it's 2pm-ish.
* She doesn't like going to bed at night without me. She cries herself to sleep when I'm at school, but when I don't have class then she goes right to bed without a problem. I definitely know she misses me when I'm gone.
Anywho, those are just a couple of things she does. She's a little ham when she sees the camera or my phone. She loves getting her photo taken (as long as she knows the person taking the picture).
On to me, I'm great. I feel absolutely amazing. I forget how much easier life is when you don't weigh almost 200lbs. I don't know how much weight I've lost, but I know I've lost more. I'll be weighing myself today and I'll update my weight loss ticker. School is fantabulous. I feel like I've been doing very well. For my A&P class I got a 78% on my first test in lecture and I've gotten two 100% on my quizes in lab. I'm not off to a bad start in A&P. I am super proud of myself.
My babies
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Monday, January 17, 2011
It's been a minute
I've been busy the past couple days. Papi and I had some drama on Thursday that I'm not going to get into. We went to the gym Friday, Saturday, and yesterday. I weighed myself on Friday and was shockwed to learn that I lost 10 POUNDS. Yesterday we worked out for two hours and then went swimming with Miss Bug. We got the DAC at 1:20pm and didn't leave until almost 5pm. I have to say that's one day well spent, even if we both are sore. Tenderness just means we did some work and I'm going to get to my goal weight.
Anywho, Miss Bug LOVES showing off her to teeth. She smiles and even runs the pad of her thumb across them.
Well, I have homework to finish so I'll write y'all later.
Anywho, Miss Bug LOVES showing off her to teeth. She smiles and even runs the pad of her thumb across them.
Well, I have homework to finish so I'll write y'all later.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
I already miss it
I miss being at home during the evenings. I miss putting Miss Bug to bed, or at least kissing her good night. I miss spending time with Papi. Yesterday it snowed pretty much all day. So people where driving stupidly. I usually leave to go to school at about 5:30 so I can park and get to class. The parking lot at Baker is a madhouse. I've decided that instead of circling it hoping for a spot to open that I'll just take the extra time and park farther away and walk (probably 1/4 of a mile). It's healthier for me as well.
Last night I had Human Anatomy and Physiology lecture AND lab. So two classes in one night. One right after the other. People were driving so slow while Papi was trying to get home. He walked in the door, I gave him a kiss, grabbed my stuff and left. It's took me probably ten minutes to drive to the campus(maybe more), ten minutes to pull into the parking lot, then another five to seven to find a parking spot. I then had to walk to class, find where I was suppose to be. Needless to say, I was late. Class started at six and I walked in twenty after.
Anyways, last night I also had to do some grocery shopping. So I got out of class at 9:40-ish, had to walk back to my car, scrap ice off it, then drive to the store. I didn't pull into the drive until eleven o'clock. Papi was already tired, I was irritated. So last night just wasn't a good night until we laid in bed. All he had to do was hold me close and everything just drifted away.
I miss spending more than a tired hour with him.
Being back at school also puts a cut into our gym time. We have one vehicle so he uses it for work and I use it for school. We're really gonna have to buckle down on the weekends and go. It's the only time, for now, that we can go. Friday through Sunday. Hopefully soon we'll have another vehicle. It also puts a cut into how we've been eatting. Right now I don't bother with cooking dinner because we can't eat it together, but I am going to make something tonight seeing as it's our 6mo anniversary. Even though we won't be spending it together. It's sad for me to think about being in Algebra when I should be spending my anniversary with Papi.
I may not like it and may miss everything about my life before school, but it's something I have to do. I can't get out of it. I have no job and no place will hire me so school is the only option I have to bring in more money for my family.
Last night I had Human Anatomy and Physiology lecture AND lab. So two classes in one night. One right after the other. People were driving so slow while Papi was trying to get home. He walked in the door, I gave him a kiss, grabbed my stuff and left. It's took me probably ten minutes to drive to the campus(maybe more), ten minutes to pull into the parking lot, then another five to seven to find a parking spot. I then had to walk to class, find where I was suppose to be. Needless to say, I was late. Class started at six and I walked in twenty after.
Anyways, last night I also had to do some grocery shopping. So I got out of class at 9:40-ish, had to walk back to my car, scrap ice off it, then drive to the store. I didn't pull into the drive until eleven o'clock. Papi was already tired, I was irritated. So last night just wasn't a good night until we laid in bed. All he had to do was hold me close and everything just drifted away.
I miss spending more than a tired hour with him.
Being back at school also puts a cut into our gym time. We have one vehicle so he uses it for work and I use it for school. We're really gonna have to buckle down on the weekends and go. It's the only time, for now, that we can go. Friday through Sunday. Hopefully soon we'll have another vehicle. It also puts a cut into how we've been eatting. Right now I don't bother with cooking dinner because we can't eat it together, but I am going to make something tonight seeing as it's our 6mo anniversary. Even though we won't be spending it together. It's sad for me to think about being in Algebra when I should be spending my anniversary with Papi.
I may not like it and may miss everything about my life before school, but it's something I have to do. I can't get out of it. I have no job and no place will hire me so school is the only option I have to bring in more money for my family.
Monday, January 10, 2011
Nothing really to say today...
...So I'll leave you with a picture.
We were about to head to a baby shower. She was just so happy on Saturday and a huge cuddle bug.
We were about to head to a baby shower. She was just so happy on Saturday and a huge cuddle bug.
Friday, January 7, 2011
YAY!!!
I've been doing so well with my new year's goals. I've really enjoyed bloggin almost everyday. I feel great, though exhausted, after exercising. I already feel like I've lost weight but I made a promise to myself to only weigh myself every two weeks. I figure that way I won't go crazy if I haven't lost anything everyday. I should lose something every two weeks, even if it's only a couple pounds. I put my jeans on yesterday and I couldn't believe that they were kind loose when usually NONE of my pants are loose.
Now today I made me some mac'n'cheese for lunch. It's been awhile since I had it and I actually forgot how much I love it.
I really hope I get the Meter Reading job. I looked online today to see what the bank account looked like and we don't have enough to cover rent. Things are tight right now. I know we'll make it, but we really could use that second income. I mean we have almost $500 going toward our redezvous, almost $700 going towards rent plus we still have to pay consumers this month. It would just make things easier if I had a job, but all the places I've applied for haven't called. I know it'll be a lot on my plate because I start school next week, but I don't know what else to do.
I know Papi will tell me not to worry, that we'll figure it out, and I know we will. Doesn't change the fact that I feel like I don't contribute financially to the house. Yes, I do contribute by cleaning, cooking and taking care of Miss Bug.
Anywho, I've got Zumba tonight and man am I excited. It's tons of fun. Also, Papi and I have decided thast tonight we're going to go swimming without Miss Bug. We always feel so rushed when we're done. How we've been doing it is I get out about a half hour before Papi and Bug so I can relax in the hot tub, shower, and get dressed. Then I get Bug and get her ready to go home while Papi gets in the hot tub, showers and gets dressed. It's a very rushed procedure.
Now today I made me some mac'n'cheese for lunch. It's been awhile since I had it and I actually forgot how much I love it.
I really hope I get the Meter Reading job. I looked online today to see what the bank account looked like and we don't have enough to cover rent. Things are tight right now. I know we'll make it, but we really could use that second income. I mean we have almost $500 going toward our redezvous, almost $700 going towards rent plus we still have to pay consumers this month. It would just make things easier if I had a job, but all the places I've applied for haven't called. I know it'll be a lot on my plate because I start school next week, but I don't know what else to do.
I know Papi will tell me not to worry, that we'll figure it out, and I know we will. Doesn't change the fact that I feel like I don't contribute financially to the house. Yes, I do contribute by cleaning, cooking and taking care of Miss Bug.
Anywho, I've got Zumba tonight and man am I excited. It's tons of fun. Also, Papi and I have decided thast tonight we're going to go swimming without Miss Bug. We always feel so rushed when we're done. How we've been doing it is I get out about a half hour before Papi and Bug so I can relax in the hot tub, shower, and get dressed. Then I get Bug and get her ready to go home while Papi gets in the hot tub, showers and gets dressed. It's a very rushed procedure.
Thursday, January 6, 2011
I had so much fun yesterday (WARNING: some TMI)
I ended up feeling a lot better yesterday so I did go and do the Zumba class. I had a lot of fun, but man I was tired before the class ended. I actually left 15 minutes early. I actually want to get Zumba Fitness. That way I'll be able to do it at home.
Papi and I decided to take a break today. We've gone to the gym everyday this week. Last night I was in terrible pain. I woke up at 3am with excessive cramps. They we're kind of like menstrual cramps but 100x worst. I also had a little bit of bleeding that was bright red. The cramps subsided enough for me to get some sleep, but I didn't get back to sleep until 5am. I'm still a little crampy and nothing is helping it. If they continues into tomorrow then I'm gonna see if I can get into the Doctor's and see what's up.
Papi and I decided to take a break today. We've gone to the gym everyday this week. Last night I was in terrible pain. I woke up at 3am with excessive cramps. They we're kind of like menstrual cramps but 100x worst. I also had a little bit of bleeding that was bright red. The cramps subsided enough for me to get some sleep, but I didn't get back to sleep until 5am. I'm still a little crampy and nothing is helping it. If they continues into tomorrow then I'm gonna see if I can get into the Doctor's and see what's up.
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
On to better stuff
So Papi and I joined the Davison Athelic Club(DAC) on Sunday and have gone every day so far. Monday Papi and I worked on our legs and yesterday I did Mat Class (yoga/pilates) while Papi worked out on his own. I have to say I enjoyed Mat Class very much. DAC has a childcare center so we can work out together. Then we take Miss Bug swimming. She absolutely loves it.
Depending on how I feel, I'm going to another class, Zumba. Of course I woke up this morning feeling kinda sick. I've started feeling a little better. I hope I'm feeling a lot better because I really want to go to the class.
I start school on Monday and I won't be able to work out during the week until I get my van, which won't be until the end of the month. I feel really good about actually buckling down and sticking to my New Year's resolutions. I know I can do it.
Another note: I applied for a Meter Reader Job for Consumer's Energy. Papi said it took him eight months to get the job so I'm hoping I hear something in a couple months. We could really use the second income. I could get off state assistance as well. I know that it's the only way I can provide for my daughter, but it's not something I want. I want to be able to provide for my daughter by working hard and not having to report every new change in my life to someone.
Until I know that I have the job, I will be going to school.
Depending on how I feel, I'm going to another class, Zumba. Of course I woke up this morning feeling kinda sick. I've started feeling a little better. I hope I'm feeling a lot better because I really want to go to the class.
I start school on Monday and I won't be able to work out during the week until I get my van, which won't be until the end of the month. I feel really good about actually buckling down and sticking to my New Year's resolutions. I know I can do it.
Another note: I applied for a Meter Reader Job for Consumer's Energy. Papi said it took him eight months to get the job so I'm hoping I hear something in a couple months. We could really use the second income. I could get off state assistance as well. I know that it's the only way I can provide for my daughter, but it's not something I want. I want to be able to provide for my daughter by working hard and not having to report every new change in my life to someone.
Until I know that I have the job, I will be going to school.
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
So much on my mind
I've been questioning myself on whether I want Little Miss Bug to know her little brother. Yes, you saw right. Miss Bug has a little brother as of 4:51 this morning. Things are very complicated with it too. SD really doesn't want to be a part of Miss Bug's life and honestly I could care less now. I gave him more the chance thatn I should have and he didn't take it. It's not Miss Bug's or JJ's fault that their SD(daddy for JJ[maybe]) is a DB, but I don't want Miss Bug to resent Papi and I for keeping her brother from her when she finds out. I know there's a chance she won't find out, but if she does I don't want her to resent us. Resent SD yes, us no, because We can tell her that Mommy tried and SD didn't seem to care. Once JJ's mommy found out and Miss Bug, SD denied her and said he wanted a DNA test.
Miss Bug also has a big sister, but I doubt they will ever meet because she lives in Missouri.
I hnoestly don't know what I should do. Part of me wants her to know JJ, the other part says 'just let it be, you did everything you could'. I'm just so confused right now. I don't want to hurt Miss Bug but I also don't want to hurt Papi.
So tell me something. Do you think they're related?
JJ
Miss Bug
Miss Bug also has a big sister, but I doubt they will ever meet because she lives in Missouri.
I hnoestly don't know what I should do. Part of me wants her to know JJ, the other part says 'just let it be, you did everything you could'. I'm just so confused right now. I don't want to hurt Miss Bug but I also don't want to hurt Papi.
So tell me something. Do you think they're related?
Sunday, January 2, 2011
2011 Goals
Okay so I've decided to make a list of my goals this year. A friend of mine had done this and I feel like it's a good thing to put out there.
Here goes:
1. Get down to my goal weight of 140-145lbs.
Join a gym and watch what I eat. No more fast food, no more sugary drinks and snacks. Drink more water. I'm not happy weighing 196.2 lbs
2. Pass all of my classes for school.
Study, study, study. My mom and dad gave me my dad's old desktop that he never used so I don't have to worry about being in the middle of something for school and lose everything because of my laptop shutting off for no reason.
3. Quit being such a pack rat.
I've started throwing stuff away that I don't use or even look at. I've found so many things that belongs to my ex husband that I have no idea why I still have them.
4. Completely wipe everything off my laptop.
It needs to be brought to a clean slate. I know it's the only way it'll be able to work the way it's suppose to. I've had it since 2007 and I've put a lot of stuff on it. First step is getting everything that I want to keep off it and put it on my external harddrive.
5. Blog more.
Self explanatory.
Okay so, I'll keep y'all posted as I complete each of my goals. I know I can do it.
Here goes:
1. Get down to my goal weight of 140-145lbs.
Join a gym and watch what I eat. No more fast food, no more sugary drinks and snacks. Drink more water. I'm not happy weighing 196.2 lbs
2. Pass all of my classes for school.
Study, study, study. My mom and dad gave me my dad's old desktop that he never used so I don't have to worry about being in the middle of something for school and lose everything because of my laptop shutting off for no reason.
3. Quit being such a pack rat.
I've started throwing stuff away that I don't use or even look at. I've found so many things that belongs to my ex husband that I have no idea why I still have them.
4. Completely wipe everything off my laptop.
It needs to be brought to a clean slate. I know it's the only way it'll be able to work the way it's suppose to. I've had it since 2007 and I've put a lot of stuff on it. First step is getting everything that I want to keep off it and put it on my external harddrive.
5. Blog more.
Self explanatory.
Okay so, I'll keep y'all posted as I complete each of my goals. I know I can do it.
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Welcome 2011!!!
First off, Happy New Year!!!!!
This year is going to be absolutely outstanding I think. My little girl will be turning one. I still can't believe it's been almost a year since I became a momma. I have to say that it has been the very best 9 months of my life. Miss Bug happens to have a small cold right now, but I think it's mainly because her top teeth have cut through. Yes, I said TEETH. Both her top teeth popped up at the same time. I've already started planning her birthday party even though it's still 3 almost 4 months away.
Christmas was great. We went to Whitehall on the 22nd, opened gifts on the 23rd, and came home on the 24th so we could have our own small Christmas in our house. Memaw then brought George and Fred over to do another small christmas gathering with Miss Bug and their other 2 cousins (my nephews, D & A) on the 30th. Miss Bug had a blast at Memaw and Poppa's. She got some toys she absolutely love playing with. Needless to say I think my little girl got spoiled with the ammount of celebrations she got for her first Christmas. Hopefully she doesn't start thinking this is how it should be every year.
New Year's was celebrated by Papi and I watching The Office until 11:50pm. Then we flipped the TV over to ABC to watch the ball drop. I have to say that the kiss I got at midnight has to be the very best new year's kiss ever.
I need to start taking my Christmas decorations down but I really don't have the motivation to do it. Plus, I love having my christmas decorations out. I'll probably end up taking it all down when Papi goes back to work on Monday.
Anyways, I'm off. Just thought I would update you all and wish you all a very Happy New Year!!! I hope all your wishes come true.
And, I'm off.
This year is going to be absolutely outstanding I think. My little girl will be turning one. I still can't believe it's been almost a year since I became a momma. I have to say that it has been the very best 9 months of my life. Miss Bug happens to have a small cold right now, but I think it's mainly because her top teeth have cut through. Yes, I said TEETH. Both her top teeth popped up at the same time. I've already started planning her birthday party even though it's still 3 almost 4 months away.
Christmas was great. We went to Whitehall on the 22nd, opened gifts on the 23rd, and came home on the 24th so we could have our own small Christmas in our house. Memaw then brought George and Fred over to do another small christmas gathering with Miss Bug and their other 2 cousins (my nephews, D & A) on the 30th. Miss Bug had a blast at Memaw and Poppa's. She got some toys she absolutely love playing with. Needless to say I think my little girl got spoiled with the ammount of celebrations she got for her first Christmas. Hopefully she doesn't start thinking this is how it should be every year.
New Year's was celebrated by Papi and I watching The Office until 11:50pm. Then we flipped the TV over to ABC to watch the ball drop. I have to say that the kiss I got at midnight has to be the very best new year's kiss ever.
I need to start taking my Christmas decorations down but I really don't have the motivation to do it. Plus, I love having my christmas decorations out. I'll probably end up taking it all down when Papi goes back to work on Monday.
Anyways, I'm off. Just thought I would update you all and wish you all a very Happy New Year!!! I hope all your wishes come true.
And, I'm off.
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