25weeks 6days - Almost Christmas

There's my baby girl at 22weeks 6days. I just realized that I've been a day ahead with my count. Christmas Eve is tomorrow and I am super excited. I love christmas.

So much has happened since Thanksgiving. We found out that it's definately a little girl on the 02nd and the Nutcracker was AMAZING. I had so much fun even though by the end of the night my back was killing me halfway through. My birthday was an okay day. I was extremely upset that I didn't get to go to dinner where I really wanted to go. I wanted to go to Bennegins, but we couldn.t go so I had to settle for Applebee's and then when the waitress asked if we want desert Dad flat out said no. So I didn't even get desert on my birthday. Messed up huh?

Anywho, the settlement conference went NO WHERE. I showed up and wait for my lawyer to find out what was going on. He goes to find out what was gonna happen and when he came out of the office all he said was "You're done. You can go home." Now I kinda figured that would happen, but I was the one to show up so I hope that earned me some kudo points with the judge. I put the effort into doing what I'm suppose to do and he doesn't even have enough balls to show up. His lawyer showed up, but not him. I wasn't surprised he didn't show up, I was more surprised his mommy didn't show up.

Onto a better note:

My baby girl is really starting to poke out. And so are my boobs. I seriously hope they don't get huge. My back can only take so much.

I seriously can't think of anything to write right now. Darn it. I really wanted to write a good blog today. Oh well, I said what I wanted and of course my baby girl makes me scatter brain so trying to remember anything else I wanted to say is pointless.

TTFN

22weeks3days - Thanksgiving is done and I'm ready for December to get here

I still find it hard to believe that I am already half way through my pregnancy. I was estatic when I hit 20weeks, that precious halfway mark. My little girl is really starting to pop out and her movemnets have become stronger. Eric has felt her move a couple times. That really made his day.

Thanksgiving was a great day. I made my typically Fruit Salad with Grandma and Eric's help. My back was killing me after I finished making my Artichoke Dip. Eric was such a sweetheart. He helped me so much. Kay, Trevor, Nena, and Noah got in Wednesday night from Chicago. All in all, it was an amazing day. The perfect first major holiday for Eric and I.

I'm ready for December to get here. I have an ultrasound on the second and then on the fifth Eric is taking me to see the Nutcracker. His teacher gave him free tickets of great seats. I am so excited. My birthday is on the tenth and then we have another check-up with Dr. Murphy on the fifteenth. The fifteenth is gonna to be a difficult day just because I have the settlement conference for the divorce after my doctor's appointment. I'm not looking forward to having to deal with my ex, but I'm happy that I'll know what's going on with the divorce. The sooner that is out of the way the sooner I can move on completely. What I mean by that is that I won't have to worry about him trying anything.

Anywho, I can't wait for Christmas to come either. I love hearing all the Christmas songs on the radio and putting up the decorations. I can't wait to share my love of christmas with my little girl. My first Christmas with my little family will be next year. That will be an amazing day.

Eric's dad is wanting him to come done to Fl to visit in Feb. I'll be 32 weeks by the first week of Feb. and Eric doesn't really want to go without me. So, if Dr. Murphy doesn't have a problem with me flying, I'll be going to FL with Eric. I really do want to meet his dad and I would love to get out of MI for a little while especially since it'll be so cold. I hope Dr. Murphy says it's okay for me to fly. Maybe Alonda could come up to see me and meet Eric. I mean she is in Key West. That would be AWESOME!!!! If Dr. Murphy okay's it, I'll ask Alonda what she thinks. I think she would like to see me, especially since I'll have her neice.

If Dr. Murphy doesn't okay it then we're gonna wait until after Ellasyn is born and fly down with her so her Grandpa can see her. I wouldn't mind doing that either. It all depends on what Dr. Murphy says.

18 weeks 5days- Halloween and feeling crappy

Last week I found out that I'm having a little girl. I would add a picture but I'm on a different computer and the u/s pictures aren't on the desktop yet. Anywho, I've got me a little Ella Bug. That's what I've been calling my little girl the past couple days and Eric said that it works for her first nickname. Even though techniquelly it's not her first, her first is Ella because her name is Ellasyn Virginia.

I've been feeling kinda crappy the last couple days. Halloween was a blast but it was definately a very LONG day. I woke up at 830am, ran to my storage unit to grab the last piece for my costume, and then had to get home to get ready to work at the FIA(Flint Institue of Art). Eric and I worked that from 1045am to 4pm. All we did was walk around the exhibit and pass out treats for the kids that came in. I saw so many super cute costumes. After working the FIA, Eric and I went trick or treating with Kaity and Wenny over in the rich neighborhood. Trick or treating was from 5 to 9 and at about 730 we were all done, too tired to continue. Eric and I came home and got out of our costumes. I was done with mine. We decided after we would go to a haunted house. TJ was hanging out at one where all his friends were working. We got in for free and it was suppose to be the scariest Haunted House in Flint and both Eric and I came out laughing. I think next year we'll go to Saint Lucifers IF we can stand being away from Ella Bug. Exit 13 was NOT scary, just very, very, very funny.

I really don't want to go to class today but I kind of have to. I've got a small little thing due and I know I won't do it if I don't go to class. Gerb. My back hurts and so does my head. I haven't been sleeping well lately either. Not sure why, but I could be extremely tired and crawl into bed and toss and turn for hours and then be up by about 11. It sucks.

I'll be happy once I've got some time to just lay in bed with Eric and not have to worry about needing to be anywhere. Hopefully that'll be tomorrow, because he doesn't have school or work and I don't have any classes on Tuesdays.

Okay so I'm gonna try and get a picture of Ella Bug up soon, but I have to get ready for class so catch me later.

14 weeks...Wow

It seems so surreal for me to already be in the 02nd trimester. It feels just like yesterday that I found out I was pregnant. It's been 8 weeks since then and those weeks flew by. I'm so happy to be in the 02nd trimester. I was terrified I would miscarry, but God wants my Goober to be born. Elly/LJ is gonna be extremely spoiled by mommy and daddy. And Aunt Katy, she's already said. She's almost just as excited as Eric, me and Mom.

Morning sickness has almost completely subsided, thanks God. Plus, my headaches are as severe as they were a couple weeks ago. Plus, I stopped losing weight. YAY!!!! I lost in total 15lbs. I'm hoping I gain all that back during the pregnancy and maybe a little more, but I don't want to be huge and have a tons of weight to lose after I have Goober.

Eric says my belly is starting to grow already. I don't know about that. I'm waiting until next week to take an updated belly picture. I took one at 10weeks 5days. It looked like I had to baby bump but that's just my normal stomach. I may have a small bump now though. Who knows? I won't take the picture early either.

Anywho, I think I may be going with Kay's CNM(Certified Nurse-Midwife). She is exactly what I want. I want to do an ALL NATURAL birth. I want to be able to move around, try different positions, and not have to wrry about a doctor asking me if I want drugs. I DON'T. I've already met her and I automatically got a great feeling from her. I haven't met with my OB yet. I've bascially made up my mind I just want to make sure I'm making the right decision. I don't want to just drop my OB before I meet her. So I'll wait.

In the mean time, I've got so much I need to do. And I really need to get my butt in gear. I'm trying to clean up my language. I am gonna be someone's Mommy and my mom NEVER swore in front of us kids while we were growing up.

It's even more real now

I never thought a single sound would mean the world to me, but today I met with my ob's medical assistant and got to hear my little Goober's heartbeat. It was so beautiful. Such a tiny little sound means so much more than anything in the world. It really made this pregnancy more real. Like OMG I'm gonna be a mommy, I'm gonna be someone's mommy, finally. I'm gonna hear someone call me Mommy for the rest of my life. Someone is gonna depend on me, to kiss the boo boos and check under the bed and in the closet for monsters. I feel so very blessed and loved.

Eric was so happy to hear the heart beat too. I wasn't the only one tearing up when Goober's heartbeat was heard. He's so happy and excited about everything that has to deal with Goober.

Thank god I have someone standing by my side during all this. I love him more everyday we're together.

11weeks today, just wish I wasn't so sick.

So it's been about 5 weeks since I first started this thing. I've just been so sick that I haven't felt like writing anything. I'm still super sick, but I figure I should update.

On Saturday (5th) I had to go to the ER. I was having really bad cramps and I kinda figured I had a bladder infection. Well, when I was doubled over on my bedroom floor in tears because the cramps hurt so bad, I thought the worst. I was only about 11 weeks along when I miscarried in 2007. I was terrified I was gonna lose my Goober. Thank God I am still pregnant and Goober is doing just fine. I kind of got to see my little one, but barely. The reason being barely: 1-I didn't have my glasses and 2-the screen wasn't turned towards me. I also didn't get to hear the heartbeat but the doctor said Goober had a nice strong heartbeat. I was so upset and hurt that I wasn't able to see my little one or hear the heartbeat, but I thought 'If I could get a picture, I'd be alright.' Well guess what, the nurse told me they don't have the right equipment to print off pictures. Now I could have understood that, BUT I saw the pictures the ultrasound tech printed off for the doctor to see. I was livid.

I ended up only having a UTI, which has all but gone away thanks to the meds. I thank God everyday He protects my little one and keeps Goober safe within my womb.

Like I said at the beginning, morning sickness has hit and it hit me hard. I have no appetite at all and when I do eat I end up throwing up about 2-3 hours later. Gerb. I don't know what to do. I don't like the fact that I'm losing so much weight and I doubt my doctor will either. I know the WIC office won't be happy and will recommend I see the dietitian. It won't do any good. I'm just too sick to gain weight.

I started school today. My art class seems like it's going to be a lot of fun. I just have a lot of supplies to buy. The bathroom is like 2 doors down from my classroom so if I do need to throw up I don't have that far to go. My instrutor seems nice; down to earth and has a sense of humor. She made a little joke when I told her I was pregnant and that there might be days that I have the need to puke at school. I already have homework, but it seems pretty easy. I just need to get started on it. One part is due on Monday and one part is due on Wednesday. I hope I don't miss too much class because of being pregnant.

FYI: Found out exactly how far along I am. When I went to the ER Goober was measuring at 10 weeks 3 days so my due date is still Noah's birthday.

Mom says she hopes if I go early that I have Goober on March 18th, not because it's Mom and Dad's anniversery, but because it was MeMaw and PawPaw's. I wouldn't mind having Goober early, but I would prefer not to have Goober on Noah's birthday. That would suck. It wouldn't be fair to Noah or to my little one.

The name of my little one has already been decided. If I have a girl, her name will be Ellasyn Virgina Caviness. Virgina was my MeMaw's middle name and Ellasyn is a name I came up with. If I have a boy, he'll be named after my daddy, James Cleveland Caviness III. Daddy's name should have been carried on by TJ, but he has told the family that he won't have any kids. I know it means a lot to my daddy to have the name carried on.

If you're wondering about when I get married again in the far future, then this should kind of clear some questions up. I am keeping my last name. FOREVER. I didn't change my last name when I got married in 2006, I'm not gonna change it in the future. My last name is unique and my family means the world to me. I will die a Caviness, hence the reason the baby is having my last name. Especially if I have a boy. This way my dad will know one of his kids has kids to carry on the family name. Sure I have lots of male cousins on my dad's side of the family that are carrying on the last name, but they're not the children of James Cleveland Caviness II. I know it means so much to my daddy.

Anywho, I really can't think of anything more to write, but I'll update again soon so keep an eye out for it.

Elizabeth

Baby Blog

I've decided that this blog will be all about my life while pregnant and being a mommy after I have the baby. I don't know how much I will write just because my life is a little hectic right now and being pregnant won't help that at all.

Anywho, I'm pregnant. About 6 weeks along, according to the first day of my last period. I thought something was up when I missed my period in July. I never miss a period. I thought it was just becasue I was so stressed because of the divorce, but everyone was telling me that I needed to take a pregnancy test. So I took one. It was one that my mom bought for my little sister when her period was all screwy. Anyways, I took it and it said 'pregnant'. I was happy, but so scared. I lost my last baby to miscarriage and I don't think I could survive another one.

Anyways, I can't wait until I can safely say that I am divorced and free of that selfish bastard I was married to. I've got so much to do tomorrow. I've got to go the the WIC office, DHS, Boulder Creek (apartment complex that does subsidized housing), I have to finish my FAFSA, go to Mott, and get my prenatal prescription filled and get blood work done. I'm not looking forward to having blood taken. I usually get really light headed and almost pass out, plus I usually get a huge bruise on my arm when they take blood from me. It sucks.

Anywho, that's all for today.
(yes I know I say anywho and anyways a lot)