So I've finally gotten to that point where I just want to be done being pregnant and have my baby girl in my arms. I'm just so tired and uncomfortable all the time. I do love being pregnant. It has it's advantages. No period for example. I have not missed having my monthly at all. I now remember why the first birth control I ever went one was the Depo Shot, mainly because I suck at remembering to take pills daily and I didn't have to worry about my period. I know TMI, but hey it's my blog. I'll talk about what I want. Anywho, I do love being pregnant, but I'm so close to the end that I just want my daughter in my arms.
She's running out of room in the belly as it is. I don't know if I can take her growing anymore because I swear it feels like my belly won't stretch anymore. My stomach is constantly hard and it feels like Bug is always pushing out. I can see when she moves around and it feels like she's got no room. I know that the next 4weeks and 5days are gonna drag on and I'm really not looking forward to that. The only thing that's keeping me going is that at the end of all this I will finally be a momma and everything will be right in the world for me.
It's amazing how small I was when I first found out I was pregnant. I was looking at pictures I took at 17weeks and I look so freakin small, but I still feel small right now whenever I look at pictures from my friends when have babies or are pregnant right now. Mom says that I just carry Bug in the back, which I can completely agree with, especially when I swear I can feel her pushing on my spine. I know in this last month I'm just gonna explode, but right now everyone who sees me says I don't look almost 9 months pregnant, 7 maybe but not 9. Crazy isn't it?
I'm so excited for next weekend. I finally get to go to my baby showers. They're just a week away. I can't wait. For once, everything will be all about me and my little family. I've always wanted to be the guest of honor at a baby shower and now I get to be. I guess it's more because I've always wanted to be a mom and this means that my wish is finally coming true. I trully feel blessed. After 2 1/2 years of being unsuccessful, I finally get to live my dream. I finally get to know for sure that I will hear those precious words "Mom, Mommy, Momma, etc."
I swear my daughter is trying her hardest to just tear out of my belly. Earlier today while I was uploading pictures onto FB and MySpace she pushed her foot right up into my right side and I swear it felt like she was trying to push my ribs out of the way so she would have more space. I love you Bug but please stop hurting Mommy.
Hopefully I remember to update before I have her. We go to the doctors on Monday and I've got my fingers crossed that they give us another ultrasound or at least a date for our next one. I want to see my little girl again.
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