If anyone would have told me my senior year of high school that I would be in Flint and happy in 2010, I'd tell you you were crazy. I never planned on returning to Flint. I never saw my life going anywhere in this city. However, I never expected to get divorced and be a single momma, but it did happen. And I couldn't be happier. I honestly am not a single momma now. I have SJ and Miss Bug already knows him as her Dada. She loves him so much. Her face just lights up when she sees him everyday after work.
Anyways, I never thought anyone would inspire me to live the best I can. SJ is a little health conscience and that makes me be a little more than I have been. I actually try and walk a mile a couple times a week. SJ is a runner and so when he goes to run I walk and usually when I finish walking a mile he's done running a 5K. Our Christmas gifts to each other is a gym membership. Yes that's right, I will be going to the gym. The gym we decided on has childcare available while we work out, so we won"t have to try and work with a daycare. We can just got to work out and drop her off at daycare and when we're done we go pick her up. This way we can kind of push each other to actually go and work out.
SJ says he loves me the way I am, but he can see that I'm not happy with my weight. It's just that I weigh 170+lbs and before I had Miss Bug I was down to 165. I have this top that I got my senior year that I absolutely adore. It doesn't fit me but I refuse to get rid of it. My goal is to fit in that top. When I was in my first trimester I lost a lot of weight because of morning sickness and loss of appetite. I got down to 155. Now I was just curious one day and put of that top and it fit. So I need to get at least to 155, but I think I'm gonna shoot for about 140-145. I think that's a good weight. I'll still have my curves and I think my knees and back will stop hurting so much because I have less weight on my joints.
I will definately keep everyone updated on it. Since moving out of my parents house I've lost about 10lbs. I've stopped eatting so late and have alomst completely cut pop out of my diet. Instead of snacking on chips and cookies, I'll get me some carrots with ranch. I'm making more health conscience choices. Hopefully, this will teach Miss Bug how to stay healthy. I just want her to be happy and I know from personally experience that being 5'3" and almost 200lbs doesn't make someone happy. When I was married I wasn't happy with how my body looked. I felt like it wasn't me, just my mind.
With SJ, I can cook anything and I know he'll eat it. He doesn't ask me to make something I know I'm not going to eat. He wants us to eat the same thing at the same time. It doesn't bother him tha I don't eat red meat. I use ground turkey for spagetti and homemade lasagna. He doesn't ask me to make it with beef. He knows I just can't eat it. Red meat literally makes me sick, I can't eat it.
I never thought I'd be where I am but I couldn't be happier being here.
