Really??? Are you that desperate?

So I checked my email this morning and I got an email from a dear friend who also happens to be the owner to a online community I'm a part of. She sent it to me to inform me that my account had been reactivated. I forgot my password so I haven't been on in months. Well, she thought that I had just made a new account using Miss Bug's name. No I didn't. In the email she attached the info on the account. Well, it wasn't my email address, nor was it one I had ever used. It happened to be the email address of my ex-boyfriend. Why he made it I have no idea, but I feel like he might be trying to stalk me. Now, this community is for MILITARY WIVES (past, present, and future). Now when I informed the ladies of this site that I was getting a divorce they said that no matter what they woudl still be there for me, whether I was a army wife or not.

While I was pregnant I would get on the site and vent and talk and just have "me" time. Well, Eric didn't see the point of me still being part or a military wife site. I told him time and again that it was more than just a military wife site. I thold him those women were my friends.

Now, it upset me when I found out he was trying to join a site he had no right joining. When I found out that he was using MY daughter's name, it pissed me off. I mean, HOW DARE HE?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! Not only did he use her name but he also used the month and date of her birthday. I am just so glad my friend emailed me. She said that she would be deleting the account under Miss Bug's name and reactivating mine original account.

I was so tempted to email him and give him a piece of my mind, but all it would doo is make more drama in my life and I've decided to be the bigger person when it comes to the petty things exes do. I know that all they're trying to is get a rise out of me and if I start drama then I let them know that they can still get under my skin. I won't be giving them the satifaction.

I have to say...I feel so lucky in life

I swear I fall in love with Papi even more everyday. He makes me a better person. He's my very best friend. I couldn't see myself with anyone else for the rest of my life. He's such a great father to Miss Bug.

Miss Bug has been a little fuss bucket lately. It really started when we went to Memaw and Poppa's for Thanksgiving. I think it's because she got so much attention while we were there. She got held a lot but Memaw, Poppa, Aunt Kay, GG, and her daddy and me. She tried to jump so much when someone was holding her. She missed her jumperoo. We might have to take it with when we go there for Christmas.

Okay, so yesterday was just a big ol' vent...Onto issues WAY better

Hey I'm allowed. It's my blog.

Anywho, today (or rather tonight seeing as it's 10:15pm) was a great day. Miss Bug had a play date with the Little Mermaid. Mermaid was born 04 days after Miss Bug. Mermaid's momma is going through a hard time right now. We definitely will be getting together more. I know she needs it.

So as I said yesterday, I had to take a placement test for school. I applied to Baker College of Auburn Hills. Why Auburn Hills and not Flint, you ask? Well, that's easy. Flint doesn't have the program I was going to go into. I had planned on going to school for DMS(Diagnostic Medical Sonography), but I would have had to wait until Fall 2011 semester to start and then I'd have to work my butt off to get one of the sixty slots. Needless to say, I changed my major as of right now. I'm going to school for LPN(License Practical Nursing). Yes, I'm going to be a nurse. Good thing with the program I'll be doing is if, once I finish, I still want to do DMS I can because the classes I have to take for LPN are also classes I have to take for DMS. Also, if I decide I like nursing I can continue with it and become and RN.

I have to go back to Auburn Hills on Friday for orrientation. Miss Bug's Godparents are going to watch her for me. I just can't trust them watching her again.

Now, onto how me and my Papi are doing. Yes, I have decided to change what I call SJ. His pet name from me is Papi so why not use it here. Anyways, we're doing great. We will be celebrating the first of many birthdays tomorrow. It's his birthday and I'm so happy we get to spend it together. If I had something to bake a cake in I would be baking him a cake tomorrow. It'll have to wait a day.

*********OMG, OMG, OMG*********
My baby girl got her first tooth on the 10th and her second on the 12th. She's growing up WAY too fast. Soon she's gonna be crawling then walking and talking. Sometimes I just want to cry with how fast time is going by. I feel like I just had her.

Okay so there's my happy blog. Yesterday I just needed to get it all out. Hope y'all don't mind.
Thanks for reading.

Kinda going crazy

Seriously, I feel like I am. On the 05th my brother and his girlfriend came to stay with us for 02 weeks, TWO weeks only. Well, this Friday will be 02 weeks. The reason they're staying with us is because they got evicted from where they were living and were sleeping in his van. Memaw called me and, for her peace of mind, I told her to tell my brother to come here. It was clearly put that they could only stay for 02 weeks. Well, SJ and I find ut this last weekend that they're not planning on moving to Whitehall until AFTER Thanksgiving. So that would put them at 03 weeks. I don't think so. We haven't asked anything with them. Okay, I asked them, or rather his girlfriend, to watch Miss Bug for me. I had to run down the Auburn Hills on the 12th and then I had to go take a placement test yesterday. (I'll get into why later) Anywho, so that is the only thing we asked. Now, Memaw and Poppa sent Uncle T $200 so he would have gas to get back and forth to work for the 02 weeks he'd be here. Well, Uncle T had his birthday and kind blew the money plus he got paid the day before I do believe. He then has the nerve to ask me if he can use my bridge card (food stamps[yes I'm on state assistance]) to get him and his girlfriend some food. I told him no and he got a little mad at me. There are just so many things that are irritating me about this whole situation. Yesterday, I think, was the worst. He told me he was had to go change his address and that he was gonna change it to my house. I told him "No, it'll cause trouble with custody with SJ." SJ has a 13 year old daughter. Well, Uncle T gets all pissy and I can't take it. I pack up Miss Bug and we leave. Yes, I left MY house because of THEM. It wasn't just the address thing. I had my test in the morning and when I came home the door was locked. Okay, maybe they're all napping. I go in, expecting to see them in the living room. No, not there. I put my stuff down in the dining room and go to Miss Bug's room to see if she was there. As I walk down the hallway, I hear noises coming from their room. OMG,THEY'RE HAVING SEX WHILE THEY'RE SUPPOSE TO BE WATCHING MY CHILD. I checked on Miss Bug and she was awake in her bed. I grab her up and take her to mine and SJ's room (on the other end of the house). That right there is what PISSED me off. I trust them to watch my daughter for a couple of hours and they completely take advantage of the fact that I'm gone. I don't care if she was sleeping. God only knows what could have happened. They said she fell asleep on the couch so they moved her to her bed. Well, if they had NOT had sex they would have known that she was awake.

I'm just over it.


Anywho, I'll write more tomorrow. I've got some stuff I have to do today.

Off to my Momma Duties.

Love: I never knew it could be so good

I thought I knew what love was when I was with Nate, but how I feel about SJ is so much more intense, more passionate, more everything. I am absolutely and irreversibly in love with SJ. He makes me feels so great about myself and makes me want to be a better person. He doesn't want me to lose weight but he can tell I'm not happy with my body. I know I'm beautiful and I know he thinks I'm beautiful. I just feel like I could be even better for him.

I feel so lucky and so very blessed. SJ treats me better than any other male has. I would say man but SJ is the first man I have had the pleasure of being with. He is truely my best friend and my soul mate. He does whatever he can to make me happy and I do my very best to make him happy. I know things are only going to get better with us.

Little Miss Bug loves him as well. All day long she says Dada. I think she knows what it means too because SJ will say "yeah" whenever she says dada. They are the cutest together. He can always make her laugh and smile. He knows just what she needs when she's crying, just like me. He trully is her Daddy. Soon he'll be her daddy is every aspect.

I tried my hardest to have Javonte in her life, but I can only do so much. I can tell him until I'm blue in the face that she's his daughter and he needs to be a part of her life, but I can't make him realize that just because I have a boyfriend doesn't mean that he can't be part of her life. So I quit trying. I did more than my fair share of trying. He will never see her. Bottom line. Bug has her daddy and he is the best daddy in the world.

Onto a happier note:
Little Miss Bug got her ears pierced yesterday. She didn't like it at all, but she looks super cute. She's got little studs in her birthstone. Too, too cute. We decided to do both ears at the same time. I know how she gets with shots so I figured she would definitely HATE doing one ear at a time. I was a little worried that they would somehow get messed up by doing both ears at once, but they look great. Hopefully, people quit thinking she's a boy. I understand that if you see a bald head you think boy but she wears pink or purple, girly colors or ruffles and she's always got her PINK blanket, her PINK paci, and her PINK frog. People just need to open their eyes.

She LOVES watching Football with her daddy and hockey with me and her daddy. SJ is on a Football League and we went to watch him practice on Wednesday, she absolutely LOVED it. We're hoping on taking her to a Hockey game soon. Not sure how she's gonna do, but I figure if she loves watching it on tv and she's use to her daddy's random shouts of celebration/aggrevation then she should be good at an actually game. We shall see. We're hoping on going to a game for her birthday. She's definitely a lot like her daddy, I do believe she loves sports.

Of course, she is my daughter so she was utterly fascinated with Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone. She loves music and loves bright colors. She sits up all on her own now. We found a Bumbo at a yardsale last month and it's a wonderful thing. She is to a point where we can't put her in it unless we are right in front of her because she is trying to push herself out of it. She's also starting to push herself out of her bouncer and her swing. Good thing her swing is also her highchair. We got her the EZBundle by fisherprice so it's a 4 in 1 thing.

I went today and got WIC. It wouldn't be so bad, but today was the first time I used WIC to get not only her formula, but also baby food and cereal. It just means that she is growing up and I don't want her too. I love her so much. SHe's growing up way to fast for my liking.

I've decided I want to try and put a playdate together with some of my friends. A lot of my friends have babies of their own so I figured it would be nice to get together and let our little pnes play. I hope I hear something back from people soon. I honestly think it's a great idea. Bug needs to be around other kids. Especially if I get a job. She'll have to go to daycare.