Happy Father's Day!!!

I just wish Bug's Daddy could be here so we could celebrate it with him. It is his first Father's Day. He was suppose to come to town, but found out he had to work. He's working at Cedar Point this summer and won't be home for good until October. It sucks. I wish he were home now. He's already missed so much with Bug and he's gonna miss so much more. He said he was gonna try to come home for a week straight to spend time with us. I hope he can do it soon.

I picked out a really cute card for him. It's got a papa bear and baby bear hugging and it's recordable so I got Bug babbling for her daddy. I think he's gonna love it. I also made a sign that says "Happy Father's Day -♥- Ellasyn" and when Bug wakes up I'm gonna lay her on the bed and put the sign on or near her and take a picture to send to daddy via phone.

Anywho, that's all about Father's Day. Well now on to my little bug. She's getting so big so fast. It's funny when people see her and think she's only like a month old because she so tiny. I know she's tiny but she just doesn't seem so small to me anymore. She well over 10lbs now. She's starting to teeth too so she's been real fussy.

And now to me. I got a job. I work at the mall selling body jewelry. It's actually a pretty fun job. It's hard to be away from Bug, but I kinda need the money. Bug's Godmother watches her while I work and the first day I worked she said Bug was awake the whole time and was kinda fussy, most likely because she's not use to me not being there for her. The second day I worked she was a little better but still fussed. She's just got to get use to Momma working. Just like I have t get use to not being with her all the time. When I first get to work she's all I think about, but it starts gettting busy, my mind is on work.

Anywho, there's an update. I'll try to get another out soon but I've been busy here lately. Until then God Bless and Happy Father's Day to all the daddys out there.

My poor baby

So yesterday Little Miss Bug had her 2 month check up and her 2 month shots. She's gaining weight like a little piggy. She weighed 8lb12oz on the 18th of May and yesterday they weighed her at 10lb2oz. She is 21 1/4in long. She hasn't gotten any longer than her last visit.

They doctors are happy about my little girl. They said she's just perfect, gaining weight at a reasonable rate. She's strong and man does she have some lungs on her. I mean I've heard her cry because of gas or constipation, but never pain. She got three shots yesterday, two in her right leg and one in her left. She screamed bloody murder when the nurse gave her her first shot and it just got more high pinched with every shot. Man, I wanted to cry. My baby was hurting and I was the one holding down her leg. Once they were done giving her the shots I picked her up and she was fine. I had to put her back down to get her dressed and she did not what me to do that. I put her in her carseat and as we're walking out of the office I'm holding her bottle in her mouth. She fell asleep before I made it out of the office and slept for 3 hours, ate then went back to sleep. She slept almost all day yesterday.

She's even sleeping right now. She's doing great now though, just sleeping a lot. I thought because she had slept all day yesterday she would be awake all night but she slept all night.

She has a certain way she goes to sleep now. I use to put her in her swaddler but she started houdiniing her arms out of it so I just stopped putting it on her, besides it's too hot in our bedroom for her to be constricted. She sleeps in a onesie and in her bouncer. I put her bouncer in her bed with it vibrating and she sleeps good. I know it might be a pain to break her of it but as long as she sleeps I'm happy.

Anywho, I'm doing great. I feel like I'm able to be myself, say what I want to say, do what I want to do, and be happy without anyone saying something to ruin it for me. I'm trying to find a job and I hope I'm successful, but I know the chances are slim in Flint. There's a booth in the mall called Personal Touch. They sell body jewelry.I hope I get a job there. I wouldn't have to take out any piercings or cover up my tattoos.

She laughed!!!

I was just talking to her this mornign and she just laughed. All I said was "What are you doing, baby girl?" My baby laughed at her momma. It made me so happy.

She's such a happy little girl. She's gone four days without being constipated. She actually have 2 BMs today. That makes me so happy.

I'm not looking forward to Tuesday. She goes to get her shots. Mom said I needed to give her some tylenol beforehand so I really need to get some for her. She actually let me take a shower tonight. Of course it was a Mommy shower. Maybe 10 minutes.

Goodnight world. Not that I'm going to bed but I'm done with this post.

She's 2 months old

Man time flies. It seriuosly needs to stop. RIGHT NOW!!! {lol}

Anyways, life has been so hectic for me for the past couple days. I'm having to adjust to life as a single mom. That's right. I'm a single mother. It's something I didn't think would happen, but the relationship I was in was unhealthy. I was unhappy. We fought all the time and once he realized he wasn't my Bug's real dad he became distant from her. He wasn't sure if he could raise her. How can I be with someone who doesn't know if he can accept my daughter? He would bounce back an dforth on whether or not he wanted to be a part of her life. He wasn't making a decision so I did and it was one he didn't like. He has been trying to get me to work things out, but I have tried. I had been trying for months and the fighting never stopped. It wasn't healthy for me or my daughter. She seems so much happy without all the fighting putting stress on her. She's even started having daily BMs. She'd go 2-3 days without having one but since I broke up with EB she has had one everyday. If that doesn't tell me I made the right choice for her sake then I don't know what would.

I told her real dad, JV about her. He seems happy and told me that if I needed help he would there for us. He's already asked me if I needed anything for her he'd send it. There's only one problem. He's moving. To France. For FIVE years at least. He's joining the French Legion. He leaves in December.

Let's see. I'm doing great. I'm ready to move to KY, but that's gonna be another 2 months easy. This blog will most likely be how I update everyone on how me and my Bug are doing. I'm hoping to really start blogging. I've tried it before. i had planned on blooging more while I was pregnant, but that didn't happen. I'll try my hardest to keep it updated but I'm not promising anything.

Anywho, I hope you follow and enjoy the Ramblings of a New Momma.

She almost 2 months old

The night before I had her


Here she is at birth


So my little Bug was born March 29th, 2010 at 3:31pm. She was 5lbs7oz and 18.5 inches long. Her head was 12inches. I went in on the 29th at 9am to be induced. At about 11am I was started on pitocin and my labor advance on a steady rate. The nurses kept losing Bug's heartbeat so they decided to do an internal monitor so they had to break my bag. I was in some major pain and even though I said I wanted to go all natural I asked for an epidural. They gave me stadol to take off the edge until I could get the epi. They broke my bag and I dialated too quickly to get the epi. I was in labor for about 5 hours.

The past two months have been the best of my life. My bug is getting so big. She had her 1 month check up on Tuesday (I know, late) and she now weighs 8lbs12oz and is 21inches long. She is a little chunky bug. The dr said she was really strong though. She had to hold Bug to bend her knees. She's got a strong neck.

Memaw said she's got my eyes. She's starting to try and laugh and she already dislikes being laid down in someone's arms uness she's eatting. She's gonna be one stubborn girl, I can already see it.

Here she is at almost 2 months old