My poor baby

So yesterday Little Miss Bug had her 2 month check up and her 2 month shots. She's gaining weight like a little piggy. She weighed 8lb12oz on the 18th of May and yesterday they weighed her at 10lb2oz. She is 21 1/4in long. She hasn't gotten any longer than her last visit.

They doctors are happy about my little girl. They said she's just perfect, gaining weight at a reasonable rate. She's strong and man does she have some lungs on her. I mean I've heard her cry because of gas or constipation, but never pain. She got three shots yesterday, two in her right leg and one in her left. She screamed bloody murder when the nurse gave her her first shot and it just got more high pinched with every shot. Man, I wanted to cry. My baby was hurting and I was the one holding down her leg. Once they were done giving her the shots I picked her up and she was fine. I had to put her back down to get her dressed and she did not what me to do that. I put her in her carseat and as we're walking out of the office I'm holding her bottle in her mouth. She fell asleep before I made it out of the office and slept for 3 hours, ate then went back to sleep. She slept almost all day yesterday.

She's even sleeping right now. She's doing great now though, just sleeping a lot. I thought because she had slept all day yesterday she would be awake all night but she slept all night.

She has a certain way she goes to sleep now. I use to put her in her swaddler but she started houdiniing her arms out of it so I just stopped putting it on her, besides it's too hot in our bedroom for her to be constricted. She sleeps in a onesie and in her bouncer. I put her bouncer in her bed with it vibrating and she sleeps good. I know it might be a pain to break her of it but as long as she sleeps I'm happy.

Anywho, I'm doing great. I feel like I'm able to be myself, say what I want to say, do what I want to do, and be happy without anyone saying something to ruin it for me. I'm trying to find a job and I hope I'm successful, but I know the chances are slim in Flint. There's a booth in the mall called Personal Touch. They sell body jewelry.I hope I get a job there. I wouldn't have to take out any piercings or cover up my tattoos.

She laughed!!!

I was just talking to her this mornign and she just laughed. All I said was "What are you doing, baby girl?" My baby laughed at her momma. It made me so happy.

She's such a happy little girl. She's gone four days without being constipated. She actually have 2 BMs today. That makes me so happy.

I'm not looking forward to Tuesday. She goes to get her shots. Mom said I needed to give her some tylenol beforehand so I really need to get some for her. She actually let me take a shower tonight. Of course it was a Mommy shower. Maybe 10 minutes.

Goodnight world. Not that I'm going to bed but I'm done with this post.

She's 2 months old

Man time flies. It seriuosly needs to stop. RIGHT NOW!!! {lol}

Anyways, life has been so hectic for me for the past couple days. I'm having to adjust to life as a single mom. That's right. I'm a single mother. It's something I didn't think would happen, but the relationship I was in was unhealthy. I was unhappy. We fought all the time and once he realized he wasn't my Bug's real dad he became distant from her. He wasn't sure if he could raise her. How can I be with someone who doesn't know if he can accept my daughter? He would bounce back an dforth on whether or not he wanted to be a part of her life. He wasn't making a decision so I did and it was one he didn't like. He has been trying to get me to work things out, but I have tried. I had been trying for months and the fighting never stopped. It wasn't healthy for me or my daughter. She seems so much happy without all the fighting putting stress on her. She's even started having daily BMs. She'd go 2-3 days without having one but since I broke up with EB she has had one everyday. If that doesn't tell me I made the right choice for her sake then I don't know what would.

I told her real dad, JV about her. He seems happy and told me that if I needed help he would there for us. He's already asked me if I needed anything for her he'd send it. There's only one problem. He's moving. To France. For FIVE years at least. He's joining the French Legion. He leaves in December.

Let's see. I'm doing great. I'm ready to move to KY, but that's gonna be another 2 months easy. This blog will most likely be how I update everyone on how me and my Bug are doing. I'm hoping to really start blogging. I've tried it before. i had planned on blooging more while I was pregnant, but that didn't happen. I'll try my hardest to keep it updated but I'm not promising anything.

Anywho, I hope you follow and enjoy the Ramblings of a New Momma.

She almost 2 months old

The night before I had her


Here she is at birth


So my little Bug was born March 29th, 2010 at 3:31pm. She was 5lbs7oz and 18.5 inches long. Her head was 12inches. I went in on the 29th at 9am to be induced. At about 11am I was started on pitocin and my labor advance on a steady rate. The nurses kept losing Bug's heartbeat so they decided to do an internal monitor so they had to break my bag. I was in some major pain and even though I said I wanted to go all natural I asked for an epidural. They gave me stadol to take off the edge until I could get the epi. They broke my bag and I dialated too quickly to get the epi. I was in labor for about 5 hours.

The past two months have been the best of my life. My bug is getting so big. She had her 1 month check up on Tuesday (I know, late) and she now weighs 8lbs12oz and is 21inches long. She is a little chunky bug. The dr said she was really strong though. She had to hold Bug to bend her knees. She's got a strong neck.

Memaw said she's got my eyes. She's starting to try and laugh and she already dislikes being laid down in someone's arms uness she's eatting. She's gonna be one stubborn girl, I can already see it.

Here she is at almost 2 months old

38weeks 1day - She's dropped

Like OMG YAY!!!! I'm so happy she's dropped down. It just means were that much close to her coming to the world. We had an OB visit yesterday and I'm 1cm dialated and 70% effaced. Everyone who works in the office don't think we'll make it to our next appointment. I've been so tired here lately. I sleep for maybe 4 hours a night before I'm up every hour because I have to pee and then I'll crawl back into bed and toss and turn and just when I start dozing I have to pee again. I'm happy I get those 4 hours before it starts but I am just so tired all day. Daddy and I have been walking a lot here lately to help with the onset of labor. We're ready to be Mommy nad Daddy to our little Bug. She's got so much stuff that our room isn't really our anymore. It's her room, just with our bed, desk, and clothes.

One good thing about all this is that I can finally breathe almost normal. I never realized how much she squished my lungs until she dropped. We were at the bowling alley last night and I guess all my trips to the bathroom helped. I also think I've begun losing my mucus plug. I saw a brown spot on my underwear and I know that the discharge of the mucus plug could be brownish and not very noticeable. I know TMI, but it's just a part of life.

Personally, I think my baby girl is boycotting the grandkids group photo tomorrow. Memaw is getting a picture of all the grandkids so she has a group photo and I think Bug wants her to wait. I mean seriously, I'm due in two weeks. I understand she doesn't know when she'll have a chance to get it, but it kinda hurts my feelings that she can't wait. I mean Bug is her granddaughter too.

It's really hit Daddy that were about to be parents. Like all the stuff we got for her wasn't enough, but now that we know labor is just around the corner he's really worried about me all the time. He know just about when I'm having a contraction and he all "You alright babe?" "Just breathe. You can do this." He's so supportive and I love him so much. Even though he's been dog tired he still makes me get up and walking. Yesterday we walked so much that he wasn't sure if he could bowl, but he did and then still had me up before noon so we could go on a walk. We did take a nap before he went to work and we'll probably be in bed by midnight tonight again. We've got to get as much sleep now because Bug's gonna be here soon.

Anywho, she's kinda pushing on my pelvis so I'm gonna go lay down. I want to just relax.