35weeks 2days - I'm more than ready

So I've finally gotten to that point where I just want to be done being pregnant and have my baby girl in my arms. I'm just so tired and uncomfortable all the time. I do love being pregnant. It has it's advantages. No period for example. I have not missed having my monthly at all. I now remember why the first birth control I ever went one was the Depo Shot, mainly because I suck at remembering to take pills daily and I didn't have to worry about my period. I know TMI, but hey it's my blog. I'll talk about what I want. Anywho, I do love being pregnant, but I'm so close to the end that I just want my daughter in my arms.

She's running out of room in the belly as it is. I don't know if I can take her growing anymore because I swear it feels like my belly won't stretch anymore. My stomach is constantly hard and it feels like Bug is always pushing out. I can see when she moves around and it feels like she's got no room. I know that the next 4weeks and 5days are gonna drag on and I'm really not looking forward to that. The only thing that's keeping me going is that at the end of all this I will finally be a momma and everything will be right in the world for me.

It's amazing how small I was when I first found out I was pregnant. I was looking at pictures I took at 17weeks and I look so freakin small, but I still feel small right now whenever I look at pictures from my friends when have babies or are pregnant right now. Mom says that I just carry Bug in the back, which I can completely agree with, especially when I swear I can feel her pushing on my spine. I know in this last month I'm just gonna explode, but right now everyone who sees me says I don't look almost 9 months pregnant, 7 maybe but not 9. Crazy isn't it?

I'm so excited for next weekend. I finally get to go to my baby showers. They're just a week away. I can't wait. For once, everything will be all about me and my little family. I've always wanted to be the guest of honor at a baby shower and now I get to be. I guess it's more because I've always wanted to be a mom and this means that my wish is finally coming true. I trully feel blessed. After 2 1/2 years of being unsuccessful, I finally get to live my dream. I finally get to know for sure that I will hear those precious words "Mom, Mommy, Momma, etc."

I swear my daughter is trying her hardest to just tear out of my belly. Earlier today while I was uploading pictures onto FB and MySpace she pushed her foot right up into my right side and I swear it felt like she was trying to push my ribs out of the way so she would have more space. I love you Bug but please stop hurting Mommy.

Hopefully I remember to update before I have her. We go to the doctors on Monday and I've got my fingers crossed that they give us another ultrasound or at least a date for our next one. I want to see my little girl again.

28weeks 2days - 3rd Trimester and still going strong

I am LOVING being pregnant, but my baby girl has decided she likes to move ALL night. She's not even born yet and she's waking me up in the middle of the night already. I feel so unprepared right now though. I know I'm ready to be a momma, but I don't really have anything for her. I have some clothes, one box of Swaddler diapers, a stroller, a carseat, and a few blankets. I have no bottles, no binkies, no where near enough clothes for her. My dad as yet to fit the antique German cradle I slept in as a baby. I guess I always thought I would have a lot of the stuff I need by this point in my pregnancy. My baby showers aren't until March and I don't want to have this feeling until then. I barely have enough space for her. I'm having to take things out of my room to fit her cradle. I hate not having a room just for her, but I live with my parents and I only have the one room for not only me, but also her daddy and her. I'm just in this mood to get stuff ready for her.

The past 28 weeks have flown by and I just have this gut feeling that the next 12 are gonna fly by faster. I feel like I'm going crazy. My moods are everywhere and I never know what's gonna happen next. I have a feeling Daddy is growing tired of my mood swings. It's just hard to control them when I have so much going on in my life. I feel totally unprepared for April, but I want April to be here already.

I know so many people who are pregnant right now, one of my close friends had her baby girl in November. I held her little girl the day she was born (on my little sister's birthday) and I didn't want to wait any longer for my own daughter. Everyone is so sweet to me when it comes to my Bug. Another friend of mine (who's a mommy to a little boy) put a package in the mail with baby stuff in it. I can't wait to get it. I love getting baby stuff. The other day Daddy's Grandma sent a package with 3 knitted blankets, 2 overly adorable outfits, a bib/burp rag combo, and some wash clothes. My mom bought Bug's Homecoming Outfit, but one of the outfits Grandma sent is so freaking cute. I'm tempted for that to be Bug's Homecoming Outfit. I think I'll pack both and depending on her size with decide which one she wears home. The one my mom bought is a premie and the one Grandma sent is newborn.

Daddy and I have been washing baby clothes like crazy here lately. We got a lot of clothes from his sister, but not enough 0-3 months ones. I'm hoping to get some at my baby showers. I can't wait for them. I'm having two. One here for my friends and one on the other side of the state for family. I still need to go and register at Wal*Mart for Bug. I need to get that done ASAP. The baby showers are a day apart in March.

So much to do, that I need to get done ASAP.

25weeks 6days - Almost Christmas

There's my baby girl at 22weeks 6days. I just realized that I've been a day ahead with my count. Christmas Eve is tomorrow and I am super excited. I love christmas.

So much has happened since Thanksgiving. We found out that it's definately a little girl on the 02nd and the Nutcracker was AMAZING. I had so much fun even though by the end of the night my back was killing me halfway through. My birthday was an okay day. I was extremely upset that I didn't get to go to dinner where I really wanted to go. I wanted to go to Bennegins, but we couldn.t go so I had to settle for Applebee's and then when the waitress asked if we want desert Dad flat out said no. So I didn't even get desert on my birthday. Messed up huh?

Anywho, the settlement conference went NO WHERE. I showed up and wait for my lawyer to find out what was going on. He goes to find out what was gonna happen and when he came out of the office all he said was "You're done. You can go home." Now I kinda figured that would happen, but I was the one to show up so I hope that earned me some kudo points with the judge. I put the effort into doing what I'm suppose to do and he doesn't even have enough balls to show up. His lawyer showed up, but not him. I wasn't surprised he didn't show up, I was more surprised his mommy didn't show up.

Onto a better note:

My baby girl is really starting to poke out. And so are my boobs. I seriously hope they don't get huge. My back can only take so much.

I seriously can't think of anything to write right now. Darn it. I really wanted to write a good blog today. Oh well, I said what I wanted and of course my baby girl makes me scatter brain so trying to remember anything else I wanted to say is pointless.

TTFN

22weeks3days - Thanksgiving is done and I'm ready for December to get here

I still find it hard to believe that I am already half way through my pregnancy. I was estatic when I hit 20weeks, that precious halfway mark. My little girl is really starting to pop out and her movemnets have become stronger. Eric has felt her move a couple times. That really made his day.

Thanksgiving was a great day. I made my typically Fruit Salad with Grandma and Eric's help. My back was killing me after I finished making my Artichoke Dip. Eric was such a sweetheart. He helped me so much. Kay, Trevor, Nena, and Noah got in Wednesday night from Chicago. All in all, it was an amazing day. The perfect first major holiday for Eric and I.

I'm ready for December to get here. I have an ultrasound on the second and then on the fifth Eric is taking me to see the Nutcracker. His teacher gave him free tickets of great seats. I am so excited. My birthday is on the tenth and then we have another check-up with Dr. Murphy on the fifteenth. The fifteenth is gonna to be a difficult day just because I have the settlement conference for the divorce after my doctor's appointment. I'm not looking forward to having to deal with my ex, but I'm happy that I'll know what's going on with the divorce. The sooner that is out of the way the sooner I can move on completely. What I mean by that is that I won't have to worry about him trying anything.

Anywho, I can't wait for Christmas to come either. I love hearing all the Christmas songs on the radio and putting up the decorations. I can't wait to share my love of christmas with my little girl. My first Christmas with my little family will be next year. That will be an amazing day.

Eric's dad is wanting him to come done to Fl to visit in Feb. I'll be 32 weeks by the first week of Feb. and Eric doesn't really want to go without me. So, if Dr. Murphy doesn't have a problem with me flying, I'll be going to FL with Eric. I really do want to meet his dad and I would love to get out of MI for a little while especially since it'll be so cold. I hope Dr. Murphy says it's okay for me to fly. Maybe Alonda could come up to see me and meet Eric. I mean she is in Key West. That would be AWESOME!!!! If Dr. Murphy okay's it, I'll ask Alonda what she thinks. I think she would like to see me, especially since I'll have her neice.

If Dr. Murphy doesn't okay it then we're gonna wait until after Ellasyn is born and fly down with her so her Grandpa can see her. I wouldn't mind doing that either. It all depends on what Dr. Murphy says.

18 weeks 5days- Halloween and feeling crappy

Last week I found out that I'm having a little girl. I would add a picture but I'm on a different computer and the u/s pictures aren't on the desktop yet. Anywho, I've got me a little Ella Bug. That's what I've been calling my little girl the past couple days and Eric said that it works for her first nickname. Even though techniquelly it's not her first, her first is Ella because her name is Ellasyn Virginia.

I've been feeling kinda crappy the last couple days. Halloween was a blast but it was definately a very LONG day. I woke up at 830am, ran to my storage unit to grab the last piece for my costume, and then had to get home to get ready to work at the FIA(Flint Institue of Art). Eric and I worked that from 1045am to 4pm. All we did was walk around the exhibit and pass out treats for the kids that came in. I saw so many super cute costumes. After working the FIA, Eric and I went trick or treating with Kaity and Wenny over in the rich neighborhood. Trick or treating was from 5 to 9 and at about 730 we were all done, too tired to continue. Eric and I came home and got out of our costumes. I was done with mine. We decided after we would go to a haunted house. TJ was hanging out at one where all his friends were working. We got in for free and it was suppose to be the scariest Haunted House in Flint and both Eric and I came out laughing. I think next year we'll go to Saint Lucifers IF we can stand being away from Ella Bug. Exit 13 was NOT scary, just very, very, very funny.

I really don't want to go to class today but I kind of have to. I've got a small little thing due and I know I won't do it if I don't go to class. Gerb. My back hurts and so does my head. I haven't been sleeping well lately either. Not sure why, but I could be extremely tired and crawl into bed and toss and turn for hours and then be up by about 11. It sucks.

I'll be happy once I've got some time to just lay in bed with Eric and not have to worry about needing to be anywhere. Hopefully that'll be tomorrow, because he doesn't have school or work and I don't have any classes on Tuesdays.

Okay so I'm gonna try and get a picture of Ella Bug up soon, but I have to get ready for class so catch me later.