Birthday party for my *almost* 2 year old

So yesterday was Miss Bug's Birthday party. The theme was balloons and man were there a ton of balloons. She absolutely loved it. I made the invites and sent them out at the beginning of the month and told people to RSVP by the 14th. I didn't want someone to show up and not have enough goodie bags because the mom could send me a text/message on fb/call to tell me they were coming. Well I have about 30 people suppose to come (counting kids). Part of me knew not everyone who rsvped would actually show up, but it would have been nice to been told that they weren't able to make it.

I seriously was hurt yesterday when people who claim to me as family and claim that Miss Bug is their adopted niece/granddaughter didn't bother letting me know that they weren't able to make it. It would have been a completely different story if they had let me know why they weren't coming but they didn't do anything except respond to a text I sent them apologizing. I told Papi yesterday that I was going to get my daughter's baby clothes I lent to them and I was washing my hands of them. They haven't asked about Miss Bug since they got a vehicle and didn't need me to drive them all over. Fine, act like this now, get on my bad side and you will NEVER see me or my daughter again.

Onto the person who I have always said was my sister. She has 2 boys, my nephews, who absolutely love playing with their cousins. Fred and George were up from Chicago with Memaw so they could come to Miss Bug's party. S told me she was coming and then invited me to Monkey's birthday party. I was happy to go, especially since it's possible that I won't be able to make it down for another one in a while. Now you would think if I brought Miss Bug to Monkey's party she would make an effort to come to Miss Bug's, but no. Even when Memaw called to make sure she was still coming it rang once then went to voicemail which means she ignored the call. How f****n rude.

Needless to say, I was over the moon pissed at people.

However, I'm happy at the people who actually did show up. Memaw, GG, Fred, George, Mimi, both Miss Bug's Godmommas, Unk, Aunt E, Tisha, and SB (who took the pictures for us) all showed up for Miss Bug. Yesterday showed me who I could count on especially Tisha because the last time she saw Miss Bug, she was only about 3 months old. I'm hoping the next post will have pictures to post.


My little girl is getting so big and so smart so fast. I swear she is advanced for her age, but I am her momma so my opinion is extremely bias. I know she is going to grow up happy and that's all I really care about, her just being happy and enjoying her childhood to the fullest.

Post ya later.

Life's about to get real crazy

I'm sitting up at the hospital waiting for Papi to get out of surgery.  Time seems to be dragging on right now. I'm ready to know he's out and everything went great. I hate hospitals and just think I may end up working in one. I think it's just the fact that you never know what's gonna happen and it's a little scary. I know he's gonna be okay but there's still that fear that they could do more damage in the long run. However, he trusts the doctor so I will.

I'm also ready to be out of mid-Michigan. As much as I loved growing up here it's just too hard to live here now. I couldn't even find a job in Flint. Hopefully I can find something where I get more than 4-8 hours a week. I'm really looking forward to making a fresh start in a new city. School is gonna be completely different because i'm not going for lpn anymore.

Miss Bug is thriving. She's so smart and getting so big. I can't believe how beautiful she's become. She truly is the beat thing to ever happen to me. I can't wait to make her a big sister. I'm ready for that stage. She already mommies her baby dolls and I see how she acts around other babies. She's gonna be an amazing big sister one day.

Well, i'm gonna end here and i'll write again soon.

Wow...it's been awhile.

I guess I'll start off with saying Happy New Year!!! LOL Yeah, I know it's mid February.

Anywho, my last post was a sad day for me. I think about my life right now and I wonder what it would be like to have an almost 4 year old running around, playing with her little sister.

So things are great. January was a bit rough but this month has been tons better. I can hardly believe what's happening right now. I'll start with how the holidays went and just do a quick update on everything.

End of 2011:
We ended up celebrating Thanksgiving and Christmas early with my family because of my working retail. Miss Bug had a blast spending time with her cousins and being spoiled by her Memaw. When Christmas really rolled around, we ended up back at my parents. So that was #2 for Miss Bug. She actually got 3 separate Christmases because of how things worked out. Anywho, I brought in the New Year the best way I could, cuddled up to the man who loves me with all his heart. We tried to watch the ball drop in NYC but we missed it by 2seconds; however our first kiss in 2012 was AMAZING!!!

January;
I started my 2nd year at Baker and so far it's been going good. College is hectic and I'll be happy when I'm finished but I know that I have to do it in order to get a decent job in today's economy. The month floated by with nothing too major happening...that was until the 27th. As many of you should know, I was driving a cute 2007 Pontiac G6 and, even though it was small, I loved my car. At about 4:40ish January 27th some idiot person ran a red light after my light had turned green. He hit me hard enough to deploy my airbag and wake Miss Bug up from a dead sleep. We were fine, but my poor car was deemed TOTALED by our insurance. Thanks to the fact that we were paying on my car, it was under full-coverage. The insurance paid off the car and we were able to find something rather quick for me to drive. Nowadays you'll see me driving a 2004 Ford Freestar mini-van. I absolutely LOVE my van. so that's how January ended for us.

February:
This month has been all about the possibility of us moving. Well, it's not a possibility anymore. We are currently in the city where we plan on moving and we've got a town house on hold for us. We will be moving the last weekend in March so we have a little over a month to go through everything in our house, pack it up and get settled. School starts April 02nd for me and that includes me switching programs. Luckily, I can switch my program and register for classes back home this week. As soon as we get back to town, that's one thing that will be happening.

So there you have it. We've got a crazy, hectic, amazing journey ahead of us and I honestly can't wait. This is one step into our new life and so far it's looking pretty wonderful. I know it's gonna get to a point where my blog will be one way for people to keep updated with me and I'm gonna try to post more, but I'm not promising anything.

Until next time, TTFN!

Hayden Grace *November 03, 2007* My little Jellybean

Momma misses you so much. I wish I had been able to hold you in my arms like I hold you in my heart. I will never forget you, baby. I know you were there when Uncle Keith arrived in heaven. Do you get to watch your little sister? Sometimes I wonder if you come down to play with her. I love you so much. I hope you watch over your daddy even though I'm pretty sure he doesn't remember you. It's hard to believe that you joined your great Memaw four years ago, angel.

One day I will see you again and I know you will come running to me. You will finally be in my arms. Until then my darling Jellybean, watch over momma and your siblings. I hope you love your stepdaddy. He's a great father to your baby sister.

Momma loves and miss you always, my little Hayden Grace Addy

That time of year again...Plus some updates

November is right around the corner and, as much as I love autumn and the holiday season, the beginning of November has be rough the past couple of years. October 15th was National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. It was rather rough, but I was lucky enough to have had to work. On November 03rd it will have been 4 years since I miscarriaged my precious baby girl Hayden Grace. I think of how much has changed since I lost her. God knew it was for the best that He protect my daughter from the ordeal of my divorce. It's quite mind boggling that, had I not miscarried her, I would have a 3 1/2 year old running around, messing with her little sister. I will let Miss Bug know she has an Angel as a BIG sister, just like I'll make sure all my babies know of her.

If you didn't catch it before, I have a job. It's seasonal right now, but my manager said there would be openings after the holidays. Hopefully I get to stay. If not, then it's just more work experience and another job I can add to my resume. Anywho, I work at C's in B.R.P.O. I really like it. I get to help people and see all ages of babies. Honestly, it was just meant to be. Papi, Miss Bug, and I went to the outlet center to use a $25 off coupon and Miss Bug soaked through her clothes. Of course, the one time I don't have a spare outfit in her diaper bag, this happens. So we run over to C's to grab an outfit for her and Papi asks if they're hiring. They were and he grabbed an aplication for me. I took it back the next day and got an interview scheduled for the next day. I went in, got the job, and started that following week. I love all the women I work with, they're all such characters. Keep your fingers crossed that I get to keep this job after the new year.

Now on the Little Miss Bug. My oh my, how she's grown. She's actually caught up to the size clothes sized for her age. I can hardly believe that in a couple short weeks she's going to be 19mo old. Time is flying far to fast for my liking. Where did my itty bitty baby go? She's now sitting at the dining room table instead of in her high chair and she's throwing trash away in the trash can when we ask her. We don't even have to throw away her dirty diapers because as soon as she's dressed with a fresh diaper, she grabs the dirty one and off to the trash can she goes. She's so smart and so independent. She's started saying new words like; elephant, balloon, ball, no, and yeah. She says 'please' and 'thank you' in ASL and I'm working on 'you're welcome'. (I really need to get into the ASL classes at school) Papi and I took Miss Bug to her first professional basball game and man did she have a blast.

Papi and I are wonderful. We're hoping that, if I get to keep this job after the new year, that we can get married and be off state assistance. I know once we do get married, we won't be eligable for anything. We're not worried about mine and Miss Bug's insurance, but more so the food stamps I recieve. I really can't wait for the day I will no longer be on assistance. I hate having to be on it to feed my daughter, but I will because I know my daughter needs it.

Anywho, I'll try to update y'all sooner. I'm just swamped with work, school, Miss Bug, and the house. TTFN