Wow...it's been awhile.

I guess I'll start off with saying Happy New Year!!! LOL Yeah, I know it's mid February.

Anywho, my last post was a sad day for me. I think about my life right now and I wonder what it would be like to have an almost 4 year old running around, playing with her little sister.

So things are great. January was a bit rough but this month has been tons better. I can hardly believe what's happening right now. I'll start with how the holidays went and just do a quick update on everything.

End of 2011:
We ended up celebrating Thanksgiving and Christmas early with my family because of my working retail. Miss Bug had a blast spending time with her cousins and being spoiled by her Memaw. When Christmas really rolled around, we ended up back at my parents. So that was #2 for Miss Bug. She actually got 3 separate Christmases because of how things worked out. Anywho, I brought in the New Year the best way I could, cuddled up to the man who loves me with all his heart. We tried to watch the ball drop in NYC but we missed it by 2seconds; however our first kiss in 2012 was AMAZING!!!

January;
I started my 2nd year at Baker and so far it's been going good. College is hectic and I'll be happy when I'm finished but I know that I have to do it in order to get a decent job in today's economy. The month floated by with nothing too major happening...that was until the 27th. As many of you should know, I was driving a cute 2007 Pontiac G6 and, even though it was small, I loved my car. At about 4:40ish January 27th some idiot person ran a red light after my light had turned green. He hit me hard enough to deploy my airbag and wake Miss Bug up from a dead sleep. We were fine, but my poor car was deemed TOTALED by our insurance. Thanks to the fact that we were paying on my car, it was under full-coverage. The insurance paid off the car and we were able to find something rather quick for me to drive. Nowadays you'll see me driving a 2004 Ford Freestar mini-van. I absolutely LOVE my van. so that's how January ended for us.

February:
This month has been all about the possibility of us moving. Well, it's not a possibility anymore. We are currently in the city where we plan on moving and we've got a town house on hold for us. We will be moving the last weekend in March so we have a little over a month to go through everything in our house, pack it up and get settled. School starts April 02nd for me and that includes me switching programs. Luckily, I can switch my program and register for classes back home this week. As soon as we get back to town, that's one thing that will be happening.

So there you have it. We've got a crazy, hectic, amazing journey ahead of us and I honestly can't wait. This is one step into our new life and so far it's looking pretty wonderful. I know it's gonna get to a point where my blog will be one way for people to keep updated with me and I'm gonna try to post more, but I'm not promising anything.

Until next time, TTFN!

Hayden Grace *November 03, 2007* My little Jellybean

Momma misses you so much. I wish I had been able to hold you in my arms like I hold you in my heart. I will never forget you, baby. I know you were there when Uncle Keith arrived in heaven. Do you get to watch your little sister? Sometimes I wonder if you come down to play with her. I love you so much. I hope you watch over your daddy even though I'm pretty sure he doesn't remember you. It's hard to believe that you joined your great Memaw four years ago, angel.

One day I will see you again and I know you will come running to me. You will finally be in my arms. Until then my darling Jellybean, watch over momma and your siblings. I hope you love your stepdaddy. He's a great father to your baby sister.

Momma loves and miss you always, my little Hayden Grace Addy

That time of year again...Plus some updates

November is right around the corner and, as much as I love autumn and the holiday season, the beginning of November has be rough the past couple of years. October 15th was National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. It was rather rough, but I was lucky enough to have had to work. On November 03rd it will have been 4 years since I miscarriaged my precious baby girl Hayden Grace. I think of how much has changed since I lost her. God knew it was for the best that He protect my daughter from the ordeal of my divorce. It's quite mind boggling that, had I not miscarried her, I would have a 3 1/2 year old running around, messing with her little sister. I will let Miss Bug know she has an Angel as a BIG sister, just like I'll make sure all my babies know of her.

If you didn't catch it before, I have a job. It's seasonal right now, but my manager said there would be openings after the holidays. Hopefully I get to stay. If not, then it's just more work experience and another job I can add to my resume. Anywho, I work at C's in B.R.P.O. I really like it. I get to help people and see all ages of babies. Honestly, it was just meant to be. Papi, Miss Bug, and I went to the outlet center to use a $25 off coupon and Miss Bug soaked through her clothes. Of course, the one time I don't have a spare outfit in her diaper bag, this happens. So we run over to C's to grab an outfit for her and Papi asks if they're hiring. They were and he grabbed an aplication for me. I took it back the next day and got an interview scheduled for the next day. I went in, got the job, and started that following week. I love all the women I work with, they're all such characters. Keep your fingers crossed that I get to keep this job after the new year.

Now on the Little Miss Bug. My oh my, how she's grown. She's actually caught up to the size clothes sized for her age. I can hardly believe that in a couple short weeks she's going to be 19mo old. Time is flying far to fast for my liking. Where did my itty bitty baby go? She's now sitting at the dining room table instead of in her high chair and she's throwing trash away in the trash can when we ask her. We don't even have to throw away her dirty diapers because as soon as she's dressed with a fresh diaper, she grabs the dirty one and off to the trash can she goes. She's so smart and so independent. She's started saying new words like; elephant, balloon, ball, no, and yeah. She says 'please' and 'thank you' in ASL and I'm working on 'you're welcome'. (I really need to get into the ASL classes at school) Papi and I took Miss Bug to her first professional basball game and man did she have a blast.

Papi and I are wonderful. We're hoping that, if I get to keep this job after the new year, that we can get married and be off state assistance. I know once we do get married, we won't be eligable for anything. We're not worried about mine and Miss Bug's insurance, but more so the food stamps I recieve. I really can't wait for the day I will no longer be on assistance. I hate having to be on it to feed my daughter, but I will because I know my daughter needs it.

Anywho, I'll try to update y'all sooner. I'm just swamped with work, school, Miss Bug, and the house. TTFN

Why must things be so difficult?

By things, I mean finding a job. I have applied to so many jobs I've lost track. As of right now, the only 'real' experience I have is the 3 months I worked as a Sales Associate at Personal Touch Body Jewelry. Of course, I have more than 10 years experience in child care. I have been babysitting since I was 12. I figure a job as a Nanny would be the most fitting job for me until I finish school. With the fact that I am certified in First Aid and CPR/AED, it makes it a little easier.

Anywho, you should see my baby girl. She's not so much a baby anymore though. She is walking and climbing and getting into everything. I can hardly believe that she is already 15 months old. It seems like just yesterday that I was first made a mother. My life has been so full since I was given the very best gift ever. She is so smart. She is very interested in music and books and art. I pulled out my keyboard and Miss Bug just loves playing with it. I figure if I can keep her interested then she will be a very well rounded young lady. She picks up things so fast. I started signing to her out of habit with Mimi and Miss Bug picked it up. She uses it whenever she needs. I think she really loves having a way to tell her daddy and I want she wants. She shakes her head 'no' and nods 'yes'. She knows eat, more, milk and drink. Right now I'm trying to teach her yes and no in ASL. I have come to the conclusion that I need to know more sign so I can teach her. Not only with the knowledge further me in my career but it will make it easier for Miss Bug to learn more languages. Papi and I have decided to learn Spanish ourselves so we can teach Miss Bug. With were we live, Spanish and ASL should be a must. Also, I would love for Miss Bug to enter school already knowing a language other than her native tongue. If we're still living on the east side of the state, then she will most likely go to IAF which only teaches Spanish.

So, I have a monkey on my hands

At 13 1/2 months old, Miss Bug has started not only walking everywhere, but she's started climbing on everything. She's getting so big and she's so smart. It's amazing how fast she's grown since her birthday.

Speaking of her birthday, it was a blast. All the kids had so much fun. I know of two that passed out of the couch when they got home. Everyone, not only the kids, had fun actually. And a HUGE plus for me was not having to set up or clean up. Really we just had to invite people and bring the cake. Miss Bug had tons of fun playing with all her cousins and new friends. For only being her first birthday, she got spoiled.

Anywho, I feel like I'm doing wonderfully in school. True, I am having to retake one class, but I understadn the information a lot better now. I doing far better this quarter than I did last quarter and I know I will pass with flying colors.

Well, that's really all that's been going on. I'll try to write again soon. Ta-ta for now.

Elizabeth