Nothing really to say today...

...So I'll leave you with a picture.

We were about to head to a baby shower. She was just so happy on Saturday and a huge cuddle bug.

YAY!!!

I've been doing so well with my new year's goals. I've really enjoyed bloggin almost everyday. I feel great, though exhausted, after exercising. I already feel like I've lost weight but I made a promise to myself to only weigh myself every two weeks. I figure that way I won't go crazy if I haven't lost anything everyday. I should lose something every two weeks, even if it's only a couple pounds. I put my jeans on yesterday and I couldn't believe that they were kind loose when usually NONE of my pants are loose.

Now today I made me some mac'n'cheese for lunch. It's been awhile since I had it and I actually forgot how much I love it.

I really hope I get the Meter Reading job. I looked online today to see what the bank account looked like and we don't have enough to cover rent. Things are tight right now. I know we'll make it, but we really could use that second income. I mean we have almost $500 going toward our redezvous, almost $700 going towards rent plus we still have to pay consumers this month. It would just make things easier if I had a job, but all the places I've applied for haven't called. I know it'll be a lot on my plate because I start school next week, but I don't know what else to do.

I know Papi will tell me not to worry, that we'll figure it out, and I know we will. Doesn't change the fact that I feel like I don't contribute financially to the house. Yes, I do contribute by cleaning, cooking and taking care of Miss Bug.

Anywho, I've got Zumba tonight and man am I excited. It's tons of fun. Also, Papi and I have decided thast tonight we're going to go swimming without Miss Bug. We always feel so rushed when we're done. How we've been doing it is I get out about a half hour before Papi and Bug so I can relax in the hot tub, shower, and get dressed. Then I get Bug and get her ready to go home while Papi gets in the hot tub, showers and gets dressed. It's a very rushed procedure.

I had so much fun yesterday (WARNING: some TMI)

I ended up feeling a lot better yesterday so I did go and do the Zumba class. I had a lot of fun, but man I was tired before the class ended. I actually left 15 minutes early. I actually want to get Zumba Fitness. That way I'll be able to do it at home.

Papi and I decided to take a break today. We've gone to the gym everyday this week. Last night I was in terrible pain. I woke up at 3am with excessive cramps. They we're kind of like menstrual cramps but 100x worst. I also had a little bit of bleeding that was bright red. The cramps subsided enough for me to get some sleep, but I didn't get back to sleep until 5am. I'm still a little crampy and nothing is helping it. If they continues into tomorrow then I'm gonna see if I can get into the Doctor's and see what's up.

On to better stuff

So Papi and I joined the Davison Athelic Club(DAC) on Sunday and have gone every day so far. Monday Papi and I worked on our legs and yesterday I did Mat Class (yoga/pilates) while Papi worked out on his own. I have to say I enjoyed Mat Class very much. DAC has a childcare center so we can work out together. Then we take Miss Bug swimming. She absolutely loves it.

Depending on how I feel, I'm going to another class, Zumba. Of course I woke up this morning feeling kinda sick. I've started feeling a little better. I hope I'm feeling a lot better because I really want to go to the class.

I start school on Monday and I won't be able to work out during the week until I get my van, which won't be until the end of the month. I feel really good about actually buckling down and sticking to my New Year's resolutions. I know I can do it.

Another note: I applied for a Meter Reader Job for Consumer's Energy. Papi said it took him eight months to get the job so I'm hoping I hear something in a couple months. We could really use the second income. I could get off state assistance as well. I know that it's the only way I can provide for my daughter, but it's not something I want. I want to be able to provide for my daughter by working hard and not having to report every new change in my life to someone.

Until I know that I have the job, I will be going to school.

So much on my mind

I've been questioning myself on whether I want Little Miss Bug to know her little brother. Yes, you saw right. Miss Bug has a little brother as of 4:51 this morning. Things are very complicated with it too. SD really doesn't want to be a part of Miss Bug's life and honestly I could care less now. I gave him more the chance thatn I should have and he didn't take it. It's not Miss Bug's or JJ's fault that their SD(daddy for JJ[maybe]) is a DB, but I don't want Miss Bug to resent Papi and I for keeping her brother from her when she finds out. I know there's a chance she won't find out, but if she does I don't want her to resent us. Resent SD yes, us no, because We can tell her that Mommy tried and SD didn't seem to care. Once JJ's mommy found out and Miss Bug, SD denied her and said he wanted a DNA test.

Miss Bug also has a big sister, but I doubt they will ever meet because she lives in Missouri.

I hnoestly don't know what I should do. Part of me wants her to know JJ, the other part says 'just let it be, you did everything you could'. I'm just so confused right now. I don't want to hurt Miss Bug but I also don't want to hurt Papi.

So tell me something. Do you think they're related?

JJ

Miss Bug