I had so much fun yesterday (WARNING: some TMI)

I ended up feeling a lot better yesterday so I did go and do the Zumba class. I had a lot of fun, but man I was tired before the class ended. I actually left 15 minutes early. I actually want to get Zumba Fitness. That way I'll be able to do it at home.

Papi and I decided to take a break today. We've gone to the gym everyday this week. Last night I was in terrible pain. I woke up at 3am with excessive cramps. They we're kind of like menstrual cramps but 100x worst. I also had a little bit of bleeding that was bright red. The cramps subsided enough for me to get some sleep, but I didn't get back to sleep until 5am. I'm still a little crampy and nothing is helping it. If they continues into tomorrow then I'm gonna see if I can get into the Doctor's and see what's up.

On to better stuff

So Papi and I joined the Davison Athelic Club(DAC) on Sunday and have gone every day so far. Monday Papi and I worked on our legs and yesterday I did Mat Class (yoga/pilates) while Papi worked out on his own. I have to say I enjoyed Mat Class very much. DAC has a childcare center so we can work out together. Then we take Miss Bug swimming. She absolutely loves it.

Depending on how I feel, I'm going to another class, Zumba. Of course I woke up this morning feeling kinda sick. I've started feeling a little better. I hope I'm feeling a lot better because I really want to go to the class.

I start school on Monday and I won't be able to work out during the week until I get my van, which won't be until the end of the month. I feel really good about actually buckling down and sticking to my New Year's resolutions. I know I can do it.

Another note: I applied for a Meter Reader Job for Consumer's Energy. Papi said it took him eight months to get the job so I'm hoping I hear something in a couple months. We could really use the second income. I could get off state assistance as well. I know that it's the only way I can provide for my daughter, but it's not something I want. I want to be able to provide for my daughter by working hard and not having to report every new change in my life to someone.

Until I know that I have the job, I will be going to school.

So much on my mind

I've been questioning myself on whether I want Little Miss Bug to know her little brother. Yes, you saw right. Miss Bug has a little brother as of 4:51 this morning. Things are very complicated with it too. SD really doesn't want to be a part of Miss Bug's life and honestly I could care less now. I gave him more the chance thatn I should have and he didn't take it. It's not Miss Bug's or JJ's fault that their SD(daddy for JJ[maybe]) is a DB, but I don't want Miss Bug to resent Papi and I for keeping her brother from her when she finds out. I know there's a chance she won't find out, but if she does I don't want her to resent us. Resent SD yes, us no, because We can tell her that Mommy tried and SD didn't seem to care. Once JJ's mommy found out and Miss Bug, SD denied her and said he wanted a DNA test.

Miss Bug also has a big sister, but I doubt they will ever meet because she lives in Missouri.

I hnoestly don't know what I should do. Part of me wants her to know JJ, the other part says 'just let it be, you did everything you could'. I'm just so confused right now. I don't want to hurt Miss Bug but I also don't want to hurt Papi.

So tell me something. Do you think they're related?

JJ

Miss Bug

2011 Goals

Okay so I've decided to make a list of my goals this year. A friend of mine had done this and I feel like it's a good thing to put out there.

Here goes:

1. Get down to my goal weight of 140-145lbs.
Join a gym and watch what I eat. No more fast food, no more sugary drinks and snacks. Drink more water. I'm not happy weighing 196.2 lbs

2. Pass all of my classes for school.
Study, study, study. My mom and dad gave me my dad's old desktop that he never used so I don't have to worry about being in the middle of something for school and lose everything because of my laptop shutting off for no reason.

3. Quit being such a pack rat.
I've started throwing stuff away that I don't use or even look at. I've found so many things that belongs to my ex husband that I have no idea why I still have them.

4. Completely wipe everything off my laptop.
It needs to be brought to a clean slate. I know it's the only way it'll be able to work the way it's suppose to. I've had it since 2007 and I've put a lot of stuff on it. First step is getting everything that I want to keep off it and put it on my external harddrive.

5. Blog more.
Self explanatory.



Okay so, I'll keep y'all posted as I complete each of my goals. I know I can do it.

Welcome 2011!!!

First off, Happy New Year!!!!!

This year is going to be absolutely outstanding I think. My little girl will be turning one. I still can't believe it's been almost a year since I became a momma. I have to say that it has been the very best 9 months of my life. Miss Bug happens to have a small cold right now, but I think it's mainly because her top teeth have cut through. Yes, I said TEETH. Both her top teeth popped up at the same time. I've already started planning her birthday party even though it's still 3 almost 4 months away.

Christmas was great. We went to Whitehall on the 22nd, opened gifts on the 23rd, and came home on the 24th so we could have our own small Christmas in our house. Memaw then brought George and Fred over to do another small christmas gathering with Miss Bug and their other 2 cousins (my nephews, D & A) on the 30th. Miss Bug had a blast at Memaw and Poppa's. She got some toys she absolutely love playing with. Needless to say I think my little girl got spoiled with the ammount of celebrations she got for her first Christmas. Hopefully she doesn't start thinking this is how it should be every year.

New Year's was celebrated by Papi and I watching The Office until 11:50pm. Then we flipped the TV over to ABC to watch the ball drop. I have to say that the kiss I got at midnight has to be the very best new year's kiss ever.

I need to start taking my Christmas decorations down but I really don't have the motivation to do it. Plus, I love having my christmas decorations out. I'll probably end up taking it all down when Papi goes back to work on Monday.

Anyways, I'm off. Just thought I would update you all and wish you all a very Happy New Year!!! I hope all your wishes come true.

And, I'm off.