Welcome 2011!!!

First off, Happy New Year!!!!!

This year is going to be absolutely outstanding I think. My little girl will be turning one. I still can't believe it's been almost a year since I became a momma. I have to say that it has been the very best 9 months of my life. Miss Bug happens to have a small cold right now, but I think it's mainly because her top teeth have cut through. Yes, I said TEETH. Both her top teeth popped up at the same time. I've already started planning her birthday party even though it's still 3 almost 4 months away.

Christmas was great. We went to Whitehall on the 22nd, opened gifts on the 23rd, and came home on the 24th so we could have our own small Christmas in our house. Memaw then brought George and Fred over to do another small christmas gathering with Miss Bug and their other 2 cousins (my nephews, D & A) on the 30th. Miss Bug had a blast at Memaw and Poppa's. She got some toys she absolutely love playing with. Needless to say I think my little girl got spoiled with the ammount of celebrations she got for her first Christmas. Hopefully she doesn't start thinking this is how it should be every year.

New Year's was celebrated by Papi and I watching The Office until 11:50pm. Then we flipped the TV over to ABC to watch the ball drop. I have to say that the kiss I got at midnight has to be the very best new year's kiss ever.

I need to start taking my Christmas decorations down but I really don't have the motivation to do it. Plus, I love having my christmas decorations out. I'll probably end up taking it all down when Papi goes back to work on Monday.

Anyways, I'm off. Just thought I would update you all and wish you all a very Happy New Year!!! I hope all your wishes come true.

And, I'm off.

Happy Birthday to Me!!!!!

So today I turned 22. Honestly I have to say so far it's one of the best birthdays ever. I have my daughter who has been nothing but smiles and laughs for her momma and I have such an amazing man in my life who loves and supports everything I do. I've dealt with a lot within the past year and a half, but it all seems worth it because I am extremely happy with my life. Yeah, I was heartbroken when Nate told me he didn't love me anymore and I was fed up when Eric said he didn't know if he could raise another man's child. Papi has no problem raise Miss Bug as his daughter. He loves her like she is his blood.

I've also been dealing with some drama this week. S.D.'s girlfriend contacted me on fb this week and asked me if my "baby daddy" was S.D. Apparently, Miss Bug is his 2nd child. He has a daughter in Missouri who turned 1 today (weird, but shows you how small the world really is). Anywho, so Miss Bug may have a big sister and she's soon to have a little brother. And because S.D.'s GF found out about Miss Bug (S.D. and she have been dating for 3 years) he's now wanting a DNA test. Never once did he question her being his biological daughter.

I'm pretty much done with him. He has only seen her once and she was 2 months old at the time. She's almost 9 months old. She has her dada and she doesn't really need him.

Anyways, I'm over his BS. He really is nothing more than a sperm donor. I wouldn't want him around my daughter anyways. I feel bad for his family though. She's someone's granddaughter/niece/cousin and they're never gonna really know her, if they even know about her.

I'm just so very happy that Papi loves her so much that he proudly calls her his daughter. One day she'll have a big sister to look up to because Papi has another daughter.

Really??? Are you that desperate?

So I checked my email this morning and I got an email from a dear friend who also happens to be the owner to a online community I'm a part of. She sent it to me to inform me that my account had been reactivated. I forgot my password so I haven't been on in months. Well, she thought that I had just made a new account using Miss Bug's name. No I didn't. In the email she attached the info on the account. Well, it wasn't my email address, nor was it one I had ever used. It happened to be the email address of my ex-boyfriend. Why he made it I have no idea, but I feel like he might be trying to stalk me. Now, this community is for MILITARY WIVES (past, present, and future). Now when I informed the ladies of this site that I was getting a divorce they said that no matter what they woudl still be there for me, whether I was a army wife or not.

While I was pregnant I would get on the site and vent and talk and just have "me" time. Well, Eric didn't see the point of me still being part or a military wife site. I told him time and again that it was more than just a military wife site. I thold him those women were my friends.

Now, it upset me when I found out he was trying to join a site he had no right joining. When I found out that he was using MY daughter's name, it pissed me off. I mean, HOW DARE HE?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! Not only did he use her name but he also used the month and date of her birthday. I am just so glad my friend emailed me. She said that she would be deleting the account under Miss Bug's name and reactivating mine original account.

I was so tempted to email him and give him a piece of my mind, but all it would doo is make more drama in my life and I've decided to be the bigger person when it comes to the petty things exes do. I know that all they're trying to is get a rise out of me and if I start drama then I let them know that they can still get under my skin. I won't be giving them the satifaction.

I have to say...I feel so lucky in life

I swear I fall in love with Papi even more everyday. He makes me a better person. He's my very best friend. I couldn't see myself with anyone else for the rest of my life. He's such a great father to Miss Bug.

Miss Bug has been a little fuss bucket lately. It really started when we went to Memaw and Poppa's for Thanksgiving. I think it's because she got so much attention while we were there. She got held a lot but Memaw, Poppa, Aunt Kay, GG, and her daddy and me. She tried to jump so much when someone was holding her. She missed her jumperoo. We might have to take it with when we go there for Christmas.

Okay, so yesterday was just a big ol' vent...Onto issues WAY better

Hey I'm allowed. It's my blog.

Anywho, today (or rather tonight seeing as it's 10:15pm) was a great day. Miss Bug had a play date with the Little Mermaid. Mermaid was born 04 days after Miss Bug. Mermaid's momma is going through a hard time right now. We definitely will be getting together more. I know she needs it.

So as I said yesterday, I had to take a placement test for school. I applied to Baker College of Auburn Hills. Why Auburn Hills and not Flint, you ask? Well, that's easy. Flint doesn't have the program I was going to go into. I had planned on going to school for DMS(Diagnostic Medical Sonography), but I would have had to wait until Fall 2011 semester to start and then I'd have to work my butt off to get one of the sixty slots. Needless to say, I changed my major as of right now. I'm going to school for LPN(License Practical Nursing). Yes, I'm going to be a nurse. Good thing with the program I'll be doing is if, once I finish, I still want to do DMS I can because the classes I have to take for LPN are also classes I have to take for DMS. Also, if I decide I like nursing I can continue with it and become and RN.

I have to go back to Auburn Hills on Friday for orrientation. Miss Bug's Godparents are going to watch her for me. I just can't trust them watching her again.

Now, onto how me and my Papi are doing. Yes, I have decided to change what I call SJ. His pet name from me is Papi so why not use it here. Anyways, we're doing great. We will be celebrating the first of many birthdays tomorrow. It's his birthday and I'm so happy we get to spend it together. If I had something to bake a cake in I would be baking him a cake tomorrow. It'll have to wait a day.

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My baby girl got her first tooth on the 10th and her second on the 12th. She's growing up WAY too fast. Soon she's gonna be crawling then walking and talking. Sometimes I just want to cry with how fast time is going by. I feel like I just had her.

Okay so there's my happy blog. Yesterday I just needed to get it all out. Hope y'all don't mind.
Thanks for reading.